Timo's Blog

World Peace

2005-07-27T23:14:00.000+08:00

Edit: Read NKF Post before this one.

For starters, some loser trying to "hook" up with my ex and I simply told him he didn't have what it takes. And he got pissed off and acted like a pussy. Remember to agree with him what a huge asshole I am when he drops by to say hi.

Now, lets take a look at this.
http://www.twinklingharts.blogspot.com/

OMG. Does that sound extremely "forced" and written under threatened circumstances? How about... HEY, IF YOU DON"T EAT THAT PIECE OF DOG SHIT I WILL BEAT YOU UP. Technically I never forced anybody to eat dog shit eh? He had the choice not to eat, i'll just beat him up. Doh.

When little peter is being sued for saying his mother is a bitch, well he deserved it. When cheeky Kan Wei said Timothy wears pink underwears (oh, this reminds me of the good old band days back then), Timothy keeps his mouth shut. Why? Becuase people who dislike Timothy will laugh it off and remembers to say it in front of his face at every chance, and when that happens Timothy strangles them with his pink underwear. And Timothy's friends will just give a who cares? I believe he wears orange underwears and I am sticking to it -OR- Pink underwear or not, he's still my friend.

So what happens when I decide to sue Kan Wei?
Sure, i'll feel like a god. Everybody will be WAH TIMOTHY OWNED KAN WEI... but for what? And when they get to know OH SO HE WEARS PINK UNDERWEAR HAHAHA. This just generates more publicity.

Look at this.
Wen Bing's 03 Blog
Wen Bing's 04 Blog
It just makes you curious, what kinds of comments were made don't you? Well, I can but im not posting the original post. Why? 1stly, I HONESTLY do not want to get sued (STOP LAUGHING ASSHOLES), and 2ndly, I don't have any reason or intention or anything against or towards Ms Cynthia Ang (if I got that spelling wrong, its because Im too lazy to check, please don't sue me)

Oh.
Nicolas' Blog

When I say, hey nicholas is an asshole, he doesn't give a fuck. Because that's underlying exist a relationship that cannot be describe. It can be anything between anybody. Friends to friends, opposite gender attraction, family bonds, hatred; anything. I can tell Kan Wei (sorry lazy to think name) I think your really sweet person and think underwise underneath. Which is more fucking important? Sadly, there are certain existing people and faggest who needs quotations and salutations to feel good. Its not about being petty or whatsoever, its about how you "eat" criticisms. My son doesn't like me, so I try to change for him, or I don't. Why the fuck make him suffer? To simply satisfy a small little insecure part of me. I need compliments to feel good. Is that it?

Btw, to illustrate this, its just like how I see some teachers when taking some of my O level exams. Ms Chng (which I've termed bitch, ugly, fat, and mean it most of the time) recognised me and we sorta talked a little and stuff. She wished me luck and stuff, which is understandable, but at the end of the day when there was a little bit of spare time she wished me well and told me that she's happy to see me doing well. Which I can say I honestly appreciate. How many times do you get a chance to see me accepting something like that like a sissy? COMPARATIVELY, I saw Ms Loke. She pretended not to recognise me, not even a look or a smile, and just totally avoiding in an obvious acting nature. And circumstances did not force that. What can I say? Formality VS Sincerity. My own form teacher in my former school ignored me while a teacher I've insulted and made life a living hell for showed me care and concern.

And its just a simple way of how you interpret the meanings in a message and accepting it. I'll love anyday when Christofle comes up to me and say WASSUP FAG! because we're kinda distant now and it just brings us back to the past where things were better. In the end, it not what's on the surface, rather... what the fuck which I have been explaining to you in the last 2 paragraphs.

Oh, I love all the people I've insulted in the past. Sorry you guys. Especially Kakeru, I love you. Muackx.

Sounds good? Yeah I like that. It sounds way better than KAKERU YOUR A FUCKING DUMBASS BITCH~! when I save time timing and it means the same shit anyway.

Im too fucking lazy to blog, it lost interest for me, so the next update is probably when i wanna scold somebody or something. I WANT TO STUDY MSG ME IF YOU WANNA FORM STUDY GROUP. Thankz =D (note, no sarcasm intended. this is not a joke)

NKF

2005-07-13T22:10:00.000+08:00

Normally I would say alot, but recently laziness have gotten the better of me and I just can't seem to bother to type. Or would I. Maybe.

This is based on my understanding on the situation with my extremely biased comments.

ST = The Straits Times (local newspaper)
SPH = Singapore Press Holdings
NKD = National Kidney Foundation (Singapore) *aka NKFS*
Durai T.T. (no pun intended) = CEO (some high rank) of NKF
Mrs GCT = Wife of our ex prime minister Goh Chok Tong
Timothy = Some Kickass Dude

Apparently, the whole saga started out as a "NKF Vs SPH". SPH has been sued for an article which one of its journalist wrote in april last year. Actually details of the article I forgot and can't be bothered to find out, but you can read about the withdrawal of the lawsuit later and see the terms agreed. Basically, the article mentioned certain "unpleasant" stuff about NKF (or at its CEO), and NKF sued SPH for defamation.

In 1998 (or 1997, i forgot), NKF sued 2 persons for allerging that NKF staff flew on 1st class seats. NKF insisted that its staff all flew on business class. And after that incident nobody dared to raise this issue again.

Over the current case, it was revealed that Mr Durai earned some $25k monthly, and with bonuses about 550k-600k per year. It was also revealled that he DID flew 1st class. His argument was that the 1st class fare was the same rate as local airline's business class. Who cares? You used NKF's money to ride 1st class, and denied, so you are at fault. You can STILL go get a cheaper ride, the fact is you didn't. Its not about which ride you took, its about DENYING it.

When Mr Durai withdrew the lawsuit, he agreed to a few statements, which probably are the points stated in the article (which was trying to say that he was not thrifty) He had a glass cubicle shower. A $1,100 toilet bowl and a $990 gold plated tap was expensive.

NKF had $220m in its reserves in 2003. As the ST reports, If all patients stopped paying their shares, NKF have enough to last 6.9 years. And its CEO is getting paid 0.6m per year. That could add a significant amount into the reserves I should think.

Quoted from ST:
"Asked if Mr Durai's annual salary and bonuses were "excessive", Mrs GCT replied: "For a person who runs a million-dollar charitable organisation, $600,000 is peanuts as it has a few hundred millions in reserves.

The most pissed off thing was the last comment. Every year the shows get more and more, from a simple fund raising event to an annual event, to become splited into two parts, and now they poked into cancer business. The minimum donations get higher and higher, and when you "donate" $5.00 you actually pay another 80 cents to singtel for tax? What the fuck? Every fucking cents counts? And $600k is peanuts? LOL.

Its just fucking sad how NKF became like that all degraded and shit. I wouldn't even talk about the airplane seats, its pretty self explainatory. 2/3 of singaporeans donate to NKF each year, and we don't even know what fucking happens to the money? The only damn reason why this is so successful comparatively to other organisations is because it is convinient, and yet its taken for granted. What for donate 10 dollars to a organisation when only 2 dollars gets to the patient? Might as well go and visit the patients personally or get more direct about helping them. There's always volunteery and shit. Don't give that hippy crap about "if you don't help NKF kidney patients are all doomed!!". If you are really that concern about kidney patients, fucking do something significant and quit your bitching.

I really pity all the helpers and other charity organisations there. This just shows that the work of leaders can really affect the group. There's no reason why should he not have a high pay, but I honestly don't find that a reasonable amount. It just makes it all look like its a good way to become rich. I don't care if you served for 37 years damnit, you can serve for a million years and you are NEVER entitled to be "repaid" for your kindness because that's not you are suppose to get.

Bottom line, charity organisations should never be allowed to be expanded too huge. And if the governments wants to support, organise one. Don't "Im a patron of the NKF" when we don't even know what the hell that does. Show us that you bother, show us that you care, make it open that you donate A PORTION of your pay like us normal folks. If a singaporean can donate $10 out of his $1000 pay per month, can't you fork out $6000 off your $600k pay per month? Its still 10%, $6000 might seem alot to you, $10 might seem alot to that man. Its all balanced out. Give us the bloody reassurances. We're all under the impression that charity organisations are hardup for money, and need donations. And it turns out the CEO earns more than a common manager in a company? Lol. Not to mention a hugeass bonus.

There's even an online petition, http://www.petitiononline.com/nkfs/petition.html. Currently kicking ass at 15k signatures already. Show your support although nobody gives a shit about petitions anyway.

Today's New Paper

Edit:
Today newspapers got alot of complains to ask that guy to quit, and there was mention about this petition. Lol. And wtf how come I cannot put title. Too lazy to meddle with this shit today, i'll do it when im free (which is like next century)

Millionaires Of Cents

2005-06-16T03:49:00.000+08:00

Like the recent price hike in public transport in Singapore, I saw this on Straits Times (local newspaper) 's forum today.

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Adapted from ST forum
Buying in bulk? You may end up paying more

WITH the recent feedback on bills being rounded up, I would like to point out that consumers may still end up paying more even in a round-down situation.

I frequently buy small items priced at $1.99 at Watsons. When I buy one item, the bill is rounded down to $1.95.

However, when I buy four such items, the bill comes up to $7.95, which is rounded down from $7.96.

But if I paid for the items separately, it would cost me 15 cents less ($1.95 x 4 = $7.80).

Of course, I don't want to inconvenience the cashier by asking her to treat the items as individual purchases, and having to print four receipts. That would hold up the queue.

But why do I have to bear the brunt of paying 15 cents more, when the discontinuation of one-cent production was an economic decision by the Government, and because I do not want to hold up the queue?

Chia Wee Ping Kann (Ms)

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What can I say? 1st, that is not even justified. The "discount" is given to make change easier, it is not devaluating the products. Simply given, the discount is there when im trying to give you a change and we don't have 1 cent coins to do the change. This does not mean the product of $1.99 will be charged at $1.95. What's the difference?

The difference being, this. The lady said that buying 1 product will give her a 4 cents discount, and thus buying 4 products should give her 4 times as much. Why should she be paying more?

Her argument:
$1.99 -rounded- $1.95
$1.99 x 4 = $7.96 -rounded- $7.95
Now techincally if she bought the items seperately, she should be $1.95 each time, therefore
$1.95 x 4 = $7.80.
So she should pay $7.80

BULLSHIT. Why the hell should you pay less? The discount is for convinience, not to depreciate the value of the product. So if you buy 4 million of the product at one time, you "lose" the discount if you buy them together, but this is not the case. Because you are paying for what you originally should for the product, the discount is JUST TO EASE THE PAYMENT.

In short, actual value of product is
$1.99 x 4 = $7.96
Which is what you pay if 1-cent coins are around.
You only pay $7.95 now, so that's the discount for you. 1 cents. Technically, since 1 cent coins are abolished, and 5 cent coins are used, the highest the discount will amount to is 4 cents.

Now, what if you buy the items one by one? You get more discounts of course, but you'll look like a fool and a cheapskate trying to cheat a flaw in the system. So next time you thinking of buying a pack of sweets from the stalls, buy them one by one so you might save like, maximum 40 cents from a 10-pack! Wow.

And about the woman who threw her stillborn away. She was not charged for murder. Some bugger wrote in the forum thinking that her punishment is not great enough.

What kind of an itchy backside will go bother about stuff like that? Instead of discussing how we can take over the world, we're bothering about how a "murderer" is not brought to justice. For fuck's sake, if most babies grow up to be another fag who has nothing better to do than to write to the forums and discuss about stuff like that, its better off throwing the baby anyway. Imagine being a single mother in your twenties, with a stillborn baby. What will you do? Go to the hospital and get the official documents done and get yourself into alot of embarrassment, bills, and trouble? Mental complications aside, even an idiot know the simpler way is to throw the stillborn away, wash your hands and drink a cup of milo. Before you criticise about how "irresponsible" these mothers are and shit, try putting yourselves in their shoes. I might have a different view about tossing live babies out of the windows, but a dead baby is a different thing. All the "humanity" bullshit is all gone; its just an item belonging to its mother. And nobody tells you what you should do with your things unless you are affecting somebody else indirectly.

What the fuck, that paper is getting more and more horrible for me to read. I read like 3 articles about "oldest married couples" and all that crap. Oh my fucking god. No wonder children are becoming retarded assholes like me.

Sugar Rush

2005-05-28T01:32:00.000+08:00

Ahhh... my god, im having such a huge sugar rush im stuffing in all the chocolates I can find... (no worries, I need the fats anyway)

Ok, so I've haven updated in like 3 weeks, well, I was lazy. Wanted to update during my birthday... thank people. But laziness is in my blood, so screw it.

Also.. due to a typo in my last template, some people actually wish me on the wrong day. Haha.. but never, just wanna tell all the people who gave me presents or wished me, a big THANK YOU. =D

I'll continue being a huge ass faggot which I am, that everybody loves =D (if you don't, screw you) Being 1 year older actually gives me alot of things to think about, for the 1st time I actually feared being old. 16 years old.. quite old liao leh. =( Oh well... when Im in the mood I'll talk about it.

Ah, what should I talk about? This is going to be such a one huge blabber post.. since I have no clear topics in mind. Im actually troubled over some shit... oh well, life is never smooth-sailing.. I guess I should be happy having troubles, so Im actually not bored from being an awesome happy guy. And im moving back to my house next monday... so ya. While 99% of the people with similiar status as me are having their chinese O levels, squeezing their poor brain juice out fretting over some jibberish drawings, I'll be sleeping and dreaming and chocolates.

I miss so many things. But yet... I really love alot of things I have now. I guess im slowly moving on to the next stage of life....

Anyway, next concert. I can't remember the details, so just see the poster.. and I have no more tickets left, but you should be able to get tickets on the day itself... And the scanning is broken because I suck at scanning, and after 2 attempts, im well exhausted and lazy to do it for a 3rd time, because pushing buttons and adjusting paper is hardwork.

And...

-- EDIT: FUCKING PICTURE TOO BIG SCREW UP MY ALIGNMENT, KAN NI NA --
Timo - Yao Feng - Jolin - Wayne - Mervin - Yong Qiang
All look spastic because the camera lagged I think. And I was going to laugh so Im the only guy who is grinning like a madman.

And my fingers are starting to bleed from over-drumming, all thankz to Andrew. And cafe-cartel sucks! Ok whatever, Im bored, next post soon and I promise I'll kao bei over something, because I have this urge to.

Good luck for Chinese Os if you are taking! Or whoever you are and whatever exams you are taking, good luck and do well. =D

ps. Yeah I drew this awhile back, and I know the handle looks funny. Did in class what did you expect.

Thinking of going back to that fugly old school on thursday to see my juniors, but then again, unpredictable because of laziness and forgetfulness, so we'll see how it goes. POKE MEH!!!

Erm?

2005-05-06T02:29:00.000+08:00

Ha! My chinese O levels is only on september, only once, so it means I don't have to study now. I never bothered to find out.. so yeah, can continue slacking. Haha!

This is probably for the phamlet for the next concert.. I think it looks pretty awful.. but who cares.

Guess where the heck I am! (yeah I know the quality is not that good)

Hey, retarded update, I kind forgot what I wanted to say, so heck. Anyway I will update very soon, so yeah =D

ps. Oh yeah new friendster layout rocks! PINK RULES! Go change quick gogogo =D
My Friendster Profile

Broken And Happy

2005-04-30T00:32:00.000+08:00

Oh My God. Im in such a good mood you can scold me a fucking bastard! If it makes you feel good to lie, I don't mind sharing my good mood with you! Yeah =D

Alright, 1st shitty thing, my drum sticks broke. Don't ask me why how did it happen. Its embarrassing when like 10 people are watching, impressive, and suddenly a piece of wood flies at your face.. Anyway, its old so who cares.

And its a lousy pic because I literrally scanned the pieces in, so when I have a better chance I'll take a picture. (its only 1 stick) and im too lazy to tone it smaller down anymore, so screw it.

Why am I in a good mood? Shan't tell you. Pretty lame post actually, but Im just in a good mood. So going to stop here.

Going indonesia for the weekend and monday, and come back to pia chinese. Please start revising your chinese guys. Jia you!

Came back around 12:15, did all the needed stuff until 12:30, started my chinese revision then, and after 5 minutes I got tired and came over to blog. Im pretty impressed though. At least I started my revision, and im 5minutes nearer to the C6. Go me! (no, not acting cute for fuck's sakes)

Show me some love =D If any of you I know fails chinese I'll make sure you'll get to look at Mr Foo (yuck) for a whole hour (without any pails for puking wor) so make sure you save yourself from that agony.

That's all, and spanish is a kickass language.

Corazon Timo <3 =D ^^

Cows Lead Better Lives

2005-04-27T02:17:00.000+08:00

A Bovine refers to a bull, cow thing. One thing I realised today, and that is that cows leave better lives than us. (or lifes? I forgot.. and lazy to check, screw that)

This is serious post, im not trying to lame, so yeah.. =D And i'll refer to these as cows, you know what I mean when I say cows anyway, the whole species.

Fact: Cows gives milks, and fats, which can be used for dairy products etc.
How cool is that? Lets just include the fact that they have like, 4 stomachs? You won't have to worry about organ failure, or out of supplies for transplants man. When a cow die it can save 4 other cows suffering from stomach problems, if they even need one in the 1st place. Give fats for soap? Skin for leather? And how cool is milk? As a guy, it's one of the thing I'll probably never understand, but come on, imagine half the world have access to your pee and takes a cup of it everyday. Not to mention providing beef, if one day cows all disappear we would be forced to eat pork which gives heart diseases and are not as clean, or chickens which taste like shit as usual, or drink goat's milk which smells?

Fact: Cows are herbivores.
This simple means you eat grass, different variety, different texture and stuff, but all in all I don't think cows have much sensory glands on their tongues. So? You don't get to fret what to eat next or force to have long dinners or whatever, or eat the really bad tasting "medicines" because nothing will ever be bad tasting, or try to chew meat and break your teeth.

Fact: Cows don't have to study.
Well, enough said. I'll love to study how to eat grass, shit, sleep, and reproduce all day. And fart? Oh did I mention that? well...

Fact: Cows have the ability to rule the world.
How? Did you know cows give off so much hydrocarbon (gaseous CO²) that they contribute to global warming? I can't explain how cool it is to threaten the world by farting and burping. How awesome is it to be able to rule the world? Not to mention that cows do it with style. Even hollywood can't come up with a script half as good as that.

Fact: Cows have 20 years of life.
You wonder, THAT IS A BAD THING. And their lives are shortened by mass killings? Well sorry, I've read about humans that live more than 70/80 years of their lives doing useless or bad things. Why not just live 20 years, and contribute? Farting for 20 years is enough enjoyment for me, or even any greedy man. Think about people who spent their whole life exploring outer space, making spaceships, burning fuels polluting everything, killing themselves, inventing useless stuff, or invent stuff that kills people? Nah, we cows are - I mean, cows couldn't care less about this. Just eat grass and when a meteor strikes, who cares? At least I don't spent 20 years worrying about the predicted meteorite and worry about it, and die anyway.

Fact: Cows get to fuck anytime they like.
And they don't have to get locked up in a cell because they decide to obey their nature's call? If a bull wants you, moo for it man.

Last but not least, I also want you to imagine a good life. Living on the country side, green pastures, bright sun light, clear waters, medium sized spacious wooden hut, exhilarating fresh air, chickens and pigs in the backyard, and cows roaming around freely. Yes. Cows. Good scenes always have them in it. Cows sure know how to enjoy life. With green pastures you'll always have fresh air, unless those stupid humans like us decide to fuck them up.

That's all for today, its 3am and my brain cells have dried up. And no, im not writing this for any cow lovers, animal associations, or anybody who like pretending to be a cow and love being one.

Prejudices - Hate

2005-04-19T00:31:00.000+08:00

Ok, before I start firing my gun, let me forewarn and start with good news. This is going to be a pretty "depressing" and probably alot of anger invoked post, so if your feeling happy and bubbly please don't spoilt your mood.

Smallville is coming back!

and the other good news I forgot because I got really pissed off (what did you expect, and essay of good news? Bad news is always way longer)

What is prejudice? Lets look up at dictionary.com

1.
a. An adverse judgment or opinion formed beforehand or without knowledge or examination of the facts.
b. A preconceived preference or idea.

Screw the rest because we will not be using it.

Understanding prejudice for what im going to say is important, so let me furthur illustrate the word.

RACISM is a kind of prejudice. What is racism? A racist is somebody who don't like a person of a certain race, or "colour" as you can call it. Hitler was a famous racist, he hated jews, and caused world war one. Hate is a powerful thing, and it is fuelled if you only hate one kind of thing. In this case, it gave him the motivation to fuck jews over.

One important thing people don't realise about prejudice is that most of it is preconceived. What does that mean? It means you form your own smartass opinions without finding out the truth, and since being prejudiced about it you will probably never know the truth either.

Most asian racists like to say, Chinese love rice. This example is used because im a chinese, and I can say that not all chinese love rice. I don't know what the heck is the proportion, but I'll say at least 10% chinese is a safe amount.

So, now that you understand what prejudice is, lets me begin flaming.

(To make things easier, since I don't know a word for it, lets called prejudiced people assholes in this post)

Since the beginning of my memory, my life have been plagued by fucking assholes who are prejudices. People who dislike indians for thier "smell", malays for being "violent" (as usual, preconceived "observations"), beggars for being losers, old people for being a pain in the ass, men who don't put the toilet seat up, woman who put lots of make up, etc. etc. These bunch of hardcore losers make me feel like puking.

As it comes to my age of life now, the whole journey made me see even more prejudiced people. One of such commonly faced now are people who look down on school dropouts. So what if im a school dropout fuckers? So what if my group of friends are? So what if they had to retake O levels? I'll beat ur ass flat in one second in a fight, or beat your daughter in an IQ test anyday, or own your son in warcraft with handicap. Just because you can haggle like a pro in the market doesn't give you the right to hate.

My friend has ill health, shitty family, and proverty. So? These 3 issues are bad enough to screw one's life over, but not that, you have to add in prejudiced people. If you look down on people with a fucked family, fuck you right back. Next time your son will hate you for being an all show-people-we're-a-happy-family fucker, and your family will fucked over after your children chop off you *insert reproduction organs here* and commit suicide leaving you will no descendants.

And what's up with people being poor? Money doesn't do shit for you, especially if you are one of those retarded misers which most proverty prejudiced assholes are. If I become god one day i'll make sure you have all the money you want and that you can't buy anything using it, and force those notes down your throat and watch you shit big 50-cent coins out. That probably won't be a problem since your such a big asshole.

And if you think people with cancer and left 3 months to die should be injected to die instantly to stop wasting resources, or cripples would need to die since they can't do much for the society, screw you. I hope you break your spine tommorrow slut. Everybody have as much right to live as you do, and the reason why you are still alive is because even retarded fuckers like you have the same rights to live.

And while the high and mighty, fucks everybody over, start casinos and tell people that they will suffer if casinos are not opened (yes, that was mentioned by lee hsien loong, the word suffer, in economic sense), we "lowlifes" will bear the weight of all your shit.

One day all the maids around the whole world will go on strike and kill thier masters. When that happens New world orders occurs and the "lowlifes" will rule the world. The richer you are, the more maids you will have. Keep abusing your maids, they will kill you like what happened recently. I'll love to see that happen more to you fuckers.

If you had any of the prejudices I mentioned, man, fuck you. You don't own the world. Change your opinions or i'll kill you. Fucks.

Having The Empty Feeling

2005-04-16T01:37:00.000+08:00

Ah so, the usual.

Do you sometimes feel that friends are not that close to you actually, or that a person you knew closely was not what you made of him/her afterall?

I was talking to people today like always, and for certain reason I was feeling damn high. But apparently all the bad syf results or exam stress or whatever crap that cropped up fucked moods all over.

We can never be fully satisfied with what we have. Differences are what attracts us, what connects friends. Yet it is differences that causes, well, differences. Or quarrels you could put it.

And so with friends, when an argument occurs, take a little time to think about the good times, where differences actually bonded instead of spliting relationships, and there you will find your meaning to your emptiness.

We all start our lives with a full support group. Parents. Some are not so supportive, some are just the negative. But in a whole, we are what we mould ourselves. The norm grow up with a group of what people call childhood friends, we have our bunch of little leaders, little mischiefs, little deeds of simple greed, small acts of care.

As we get older our personalities developes. We have our own style, our own character, our strong traits and weaknesses. We start to become similiar to the people we grew up with, we become familiar with them. Thus we lose interest and we find our new partners and groups in life.

This cycle continues, with the exception of a few. These few people like family and close friends are the mandataries of our lives, they never grow distant or ever close, because as humans we have a natural bond of responsibility to them.

Whatever happens, life is always a path that is taken alone by each individual. Even the most famous of people have times where they are only alone. We must start feeding off the energies of people; doing things only because they are an influence to you. As we all get older, we will probably realise this sub-conciously.

Lead your own life, make your own decisions, start living your life.

I enjoy living with my freedom, socialising at my own pace, untechnical art with my own leisure, music for my own liking. I like making my own choices, not living a pre-set path directed for me. I like doing things for others which I feel strongly too, and vice versa. As long as one live to his/her wishes and his/her own sets of morals, he/she will always be happy.

This "justice" of civilisation is always set in the middle, to accomodate the majority of feelings. If you are unlucky to be one of those far from this "right" path, living to your way would be difficult, yet you will never fail yourself.

Lets not think about the material benefits, a natural lover of farming will never be as happy being a pilot, just as a natural lover of flying a plane will never be as happy growing vegetables.

Waiting sucks. Im really bored with a heavy heart. Going to be "praying"/visiting my late ancestors tomorrow, I have no idea how to feel respect to people whom I've never met or heard stories about.

Anxious till stomach cramp -.-" (no, my pms haven came for a year and its not coming back for a while)

YEAH YEAH GOOD MOOD!

2005-04-13T23:15:00.000+08:00

Ok, 4D just came up with the most unlikely numbers today, 0000 and 0010.
http://www.singaporepools.com/Lottery?page=four_d
No, I don't support gambling, but I don't deny it either.

NHSB GOT SILVER! Don't have what it takes, kpkb whole day sure gold, blame on luck and all that shit. Yeah you tried your best, unfortonately your best is for you and for most people under what you think. Don't comment about this piece of shit thang because I really can't be bothered.
(can't believe how long this sentence went)

Now that the conductor was going to leave (he was leaving before the results was out, all these according to christolfe), a conductor with a Gold-With-Honours Band (VSSB), all the burdens are going to be thrown onto our juniors, our ultra capable teacher-in-charges, a probable new conductor who probably knows how to throw the baton around better than how he plays (imagine scolding people and attempting to kick books and miss, its a major disgrace, basics of being an educator in our excellent secondary education is to learn to be a jackass first), and our future junior leaders picked from the most effective and effeicient system of voting, where teachers gets the most powers to make the perfect decision because, well they know so well what we need (to get pissed off), and then with the seniors. Wow, seniors like, in a meeting, if your the noisy one, your probably going to be disregarded and your opinion slapped back to your face although we claim we will take it seriously. Teachers vote, seniors vote, juniors vote togehter with teachers and seniors once again in another round of votes, and when there's so coincidentally ties and bull shit, teachers vote and decide. We all know how it goes, THIS WILL BE CHANGED FOR THE BETTER, WE'RE SURE TO BE PROMISED MORE VOTES AND MORE TEACHER DECIDING.

Eat meh.

Anyway, there's this cute girl with really long hair in my chemistry class whom I just noticed. I never thought of taking much of a look before. But she has a korean name.. Hehe. We'll see how it goes =D

Blog more later after my TV show, if I feel like it.

Quiz

2005-04-09T22:15:00.000+08:00

More than a week since I update, so I decided to put some filler here. Pai seh cuz now really damn busy with all that shit going on and stuff and trying to pia chinese.

Blah whatever. You shouldn't be reading my blog now.

1. First Name? Timothy

2. Were you named after anyone? Some bible dude prolly.

3. Do you wish on stars? No.

4. When did you last cry? When I poke my finger the other day.

5. Do you like your handwriting? I don't have a handwriting technically, everytime I write its like trying to imitate the letters for the 1st time. And yeah because it looks damn special.

6. What is your favorite lunch meat? Cow. wooty.

wtf happen to 7?

8. What is your most embarrassing CD? Been years since I bought any CD, I stopped when I became a full time mp3 dler. It would be Vengaboys (I don't know wtf I was thinking, I don't think I even listend to it finish the 1st time.(

9. If you were another person, would YOU be friends with you? If I like being friends with fags, yeah.

10. Are you a daredevil? Me!??! It all depends. As long as it doesn't defy logic (because im not a dumbass who enjoy jumping buildings and trying to survive) and I feel like doing it, I would. No eating bugs plz.

11. Have you ever told a secret you swore not to tell? Of course. Who haven't? If you haven't, it means nobody trusts you enoufh with their secrets.

12. Do looks matter? They do. Good looks are naturally enhanced by good character.

13. How do you release anger? I keep it inside until I have a chance to fuck it all out. Unless blogging counts as opening up.

14. Where is your second home? The internet.

15. Do you trust others easily? Yes. But usually I have enough sense to tell who not to.

16. What was your favorite toy as a child? Power rangers shit. -.-"

17. What class in high school do you think was totally useless? None, they all are. Oh, CHINESE DAMNIT. And moral education. And sex education (wow we didn't know better), and chinese caligraphy and all that shit. Did I mention sewing as well? And oh, the "literature" and "art" in school? Yeah pretty much that. Oh yeah and "music"

18. Do you have a journal? Nope. A lack of a proper book and pen to store things + laziness ownz plans for a journal.

19. Do you use sarcasm a lot? After reading all this, no? -.-" (sarcasm intended)

20. What are your nicknames? Unfortunately, I can't remember any. Maybe perhaps Timmy and Timo for well used ones, but there's a shitload collected over the years.

21. Would you bungee jump? Hell yeah.

22. Do you untie your shoes when you take them off? No? who does? o.O

23. Do you think that you are strong? In what sense? Mental toughness, perhaps. (also known as stubborn)

24. What is your favorite ice cream flavor? Vanilla! Yum yum. I do get bored of it easily though. And I don't know wtf a Vanilla is (flower?)

25. Shoe Size? Big? o.O 11.5 i think.

26. Red or pink? blue -.-

27. What is your least favorite thing about yourself? Too skinny.

28. Who do you miss most? Nobody in particular. The dead will always remain dead.

29. Do you want everyone you send this to, to send it back? Void.

30. What color pants and shoes are you wearing? Fuck, too many colours to describe. Mainly dark blue (coincidence -.-)

31. What are you listening to right now? Atlantis Princess - BoA

32. Last thing you ate? Ice Cream! Had bbq.

34. What is the weather like right now? Hot and damn humid.

35. Last person you talked to on the phone? Secret =D I die if I don't have the phone to talk btw.

36. The first thing you notice about the opposite sex? Hair and eyes. Woot. They come together. From backview, I guess its reasonable to say hair. But there's really nothing else to see from the back anyway -.-

37. Do you like the person who sent this to you? Maile? Its been a while =D Still having controversy? =P

38. Favorite Drink? Definitely not favourtie, but I drink alot of iced milo and cold Yeo's crysanthemum tea. Due to what's available in my house. Not forgetting good old plain water / ice mountain.

39. What is your favorite sport? Swim, badminton, volleyball (fell in love with it last year). And yes swim. SWIM!!! I can swim well damnit, just no chance and lazy to travel to get to swim. And also hating salt water and sand mainly in my eyes. Im a pool breed guru. Probably because I learn to swim at a young age in a pool.

40. Hair color: Currently black. For some reason I think long hair looks way better in black than other other. And I absolutely hate brown.

41. Eye color: Black.

42 Do you wear contacts? Yes. I want red ones =P

43. Favorite Food? None specifically. I really love watermelons tho but they aren't food.. bah.. they are.. aiya whatever.

44. Last Movie You Watched? Was it ms congeniality (wtf spelling) with andrew? Can't remember.

45. Favorite Day of the Year? The day when somebody I dislike dies. Better if due to a horrific accident or worse.

46. Scary Movies or Happy Endings? Comedies. (yawnz, quizs are damn boring)

47. Summer or winter? I prefer the winter climate, but for everything else, summer. Prolly cuz of the usual here.

48. Hugs OR Kisses? Both thank you =D (preddy girls only plz -.O)

49. What Is Your Favorite Dessert? Whoo, I can't think of any. I like both hot and cold stuff. Gui Ling Guo is one of my faves (aka xian cao with honey/syrup, or black grass jelly in english? Not sure. Its a herb thing. Cold)

Wtf is 50,51?

52. Living Arrangements? Currently with my chio bu counsin. (yes, that means female)

53. What books are you reading? Now, Battle at Sethorn.

54. What is on your mouse pad? Mine is 2 togehter on one big piece. I brought it from my house. Its the stick on type that fucks your table up after time. Luckily both me and my cousin's com desk have a glass over it. one is Packard Bell and the other is wtf, MOE internet? Holy shit. Its super smooth too.

55. What Did You Watch Last night on TV? I think fear factor? Tv is not my thing.

56. Favorite Smells? Her hair =D (note, her is variable factor and hair have to be in some condition. For example, maybe after a bath, and times like sweaty hair is not applicable.)

Don't know what happened to 57

58. Rolling Stones or The Beatles: Beatles =D I like elvis presley too.

59. Do you believe in Evolution or Creationist? Both. More to evolution I guess. I believe some people evolved from God *coughs coughs* white others evolved from pigs and shit and mushrooms and all sorts of bullshit.

Ah wtf, im seriously bored. Now I have a stomachache. Damn quizs. No more in future damnit.

April Fools

2005-04-01T01:06:00.001+08:00

Was fun. Although stupid msn down sms congested and similiar problems fucked up half of it, it was still fun. More coming next year! =P

ps. that genius thing was a scam.

Moving House

2005-03-29T14:10:00.000+08:00

Bah. Living on the top floor, and my roof is leaking. So HDB is coming to mend the damn thing and we gotta move. Mending fees are FULLY SUBSIDIZED! (wowzors) but what about alternate locations? Not provided because we can stick around and hear them bang the walls all day. Nice shit.

Anyway, I shall be moving over to Hougang to live in my cousin's house, for probably 2 months. Shall not be online so often, but I will still blog. I GOT TO STUDY FOR MY CHINESE ANYWAY =P

Ok, back to the main topic.

Current issues I have in mind now are the Smoking Issue and the Casino Issue. Since I enjoy talking to myself so much, I shall give more details (and practise my english composition skills at the same time).

The typical Singapore morning, with any variations, you are going to have your breakfast, or at least lunch. Whether you go to school or not. Some have it in school, some have it in the office, some self cook, but whatever the case is, whether you tabao (take-away) or eat there, everybody goes to the Kopitiam (or more formally known as the coffee shop)

And whatever happens overseas, I don't give a fuck, because im sure in some countries people smoke pot downright at the kopitiam anyway, but for us, its not uncommon to see aunties talking at the top of thier voices gossiping and sipping thier coffee. Some brown, some beigh, some black, some white, some cans with gasous bubbling drinks, whichever. Then you see your fair share of old man playing chess at the side, or at later of the day you might see some with beer bottles and a pail of ice. Whichever. But from young all of us are used to seeing smokers in the coffee shops. Yes.

There's no denying that, smoke ash or smoke, all of these are health hazards. Smoking is bad for the smoker, and people around. So the government is going to ban people from smoking in the pubs and coffee shops (more about pubs later). Majority of the people are pro it, from my memory its about 50% yes and 50% don't care, from what I read in the newspapers.

Im totally against it.
Why?

To be honest, if I was given a choice of healthy life, or bad smokey air around, the natural reaction is to pick the healthy one (of course, unless you work in the MOE, you won't be smart enough to pick which is better and, its better for you to die earlier anyway. I won't even go about being an IT-savvy country and having the website inacccessible to most people all the time, what a fucking disgrace that is.) Yet now we're talking about smokers in coffee shops. Its more of like a "right" for them. Why should they be confined into a smoking room because they want to smoke? Why are you allowed to drive your car around even though they fart carbon monoxide which are ill to human health? Why are you allowed to live even though you are producing enough waste each year and bring the human race closer to destruction?

This, is just bullshit. Living healthy is a priviledge, not a right. People smoke around you, you fucking deal with it. We don't get spoilt by banning smoking in the public so next time what happens when you go to malaysia? You get people smoking around you. What do you do? Whine and cry like a baby? And get beaten up for suggesting stupid things like telling the smoker about our wonderful country instead. ("hey, can you smoke in the toilet? this stinks.")

And for the other, banning smoking in pubs is probably even more stupid. Yeah sure, going to pub with all that smoke that has no ventilation is bad and unhealthy blah blah blah... don't fucking go to a pub then. What is a pub? Its a place associated with dancing, alcohol, smoking, flirting, and more "vices". If you want to dance, go to a dance studio and learn ballet then. You get more professional shit and much cleaner air. So why bitch? You go to a pub to unwind, smokers too need to unwind. If a pub owner decides to be unique he can ban smoking in his pub, but banning it as a whole? That's just fucked.

Ok enough of smoking. Lets switch to the casino issue.

Basically, one of our islands is going to be developed into a grand resort and they are contemplating whether to build a casino or not. Because we're peace loving tree hugging fools who wants clean air, there's been a great "debate". Religions don't support gambling, government don't support gambling and vices but suggested a debate anyway (wow, controversy), and people who spend too much time smoking and gossiping have itchy backsides and decide to join the debate instead, and the rest who can't even afford to eat chicken rice don't even give a fuck whether there is a casino or not, or whether it will boost our country's economy or not, because they will still be in proverty.

Damnit, I don't even give a fuck whether they build the casino or not. If you want to build it, build it. If not, don't. You can go talking about smoking and all that good shit then suddenly a casino is a good idea because it can boost our economy which eventually affects us? WOW. How about investing that money on improving school standards and kicking out half of those dumbass idiots teaching us (and oh, nobody wants to teach in singapore, they have really desperate recruiting tactics) or hire more smartass who can think of ideas like banning smoking in coffee shops? How about restricting social gatherings to not more than 20 people each because gatherings promote vices like "prostitution" and "secret societies" (i just can't think of the proper word now), and induce lust and theft/greed and just so many other stuff, not to mention all that beer and food is such a waste of money when you can eat a bowl of white rice and cheap vegetables instead. And drink plain water which is so ironically much healthy than beer anyway.

In the end, whether you ban smoking in coffee shops or pubs or whereever, it will not eliminate the vice of smoking. And ban of smoking will never happen, because smoking tax generates a huge amount of revenue of the government. I cannot remember the exact numbers but a pack of cigarette cost $2.50 in malaysia and cost $10.50 in singapore. Whether you ban smoking here or there, they still earn a shitload anyway. What about casino? Who cares about your bitching, they will built it anyway, be it now, or later "after making enough arrangements to prevent addiction and loan sharks and similiar problems from arising". Humans will forever to humans.

Have to go class now, want to scold more also don't have the time to. Screw it. Oh yeah, I packed my things today, many cool stuff happen as I look through. Some extremely funny stuff I wrote when I was younger, report book comments from teachers through the years, and photographs! I have a kindergarden photo of me and jinyuan together (LOL) and some from my primary school. Some really cute photos of Jit hin, etc. etc. Hahahahah. Will find a way to get them in today or tomorrow somehow or rather. Screw chemistry lesson now -.-"

Neeew Template

2005-03-21T22:38:00.000+08:00

Ok so this time, I updated again, but its a smaller upgrade and I pretty much leeched everything from my old template.

I make it for looking nicer this time, instead of simple to read. Why? Cause I have too many pictures left lying around which I feel are too good to waste.

I haven add archives and intro area, I feel pretty lazy about it.

And because I am kinda crazy and like to type and talk alot, I'm 90% going to start a new blog, but a personal one where I crap and talk about my real life shit (because its so hella interesting like every single blog out there which I bet about 2 people read everyday). Its more for talking shit (even shittier shit than this), and probably one which I update everyday, and I probably won't allow comments. But whatever, I wanna keep this blog mainly for my gaming community friends as well as net friends, those mainly I know real life from Bands and Schools will probably track the other one (if the majority still do want to find out about me ^^).

Now im really busy with the registration of O levels and stuff, so yeah. And my bloody roof is leaky and requires patching, because the paints and stuff are coming off and the walls are "bloated". HDB slaves came over to take pictures and shit, and there will be some major screwing around for 2 months, because after attempting to hammer some shit over the roof the walls started cracking, now there are large cracks all over the place (way to go professionals), although they aren't alarmingly scary.

And please, chinese blows major ass. How the fuck am I going to take chinese Os at this rate? Chinese language seriously suck, the world should be forced to undertake one universal language now. Anybody who wants to study cultures and shit should go to the museum. Its not like i'm seeing many people appreciating the beauty of chinese caligraphy or tamil handwritings at the moment.

its all about the design.
clean and dry.

Have fun studying and working your lives out people *toothy grin*

ps. LC rocks!

Freedom of Speech

2005-03-15T00:47:00.000+08:00

DAMN. Im in a mixed mood now, its good and bad together, so be prepared for craziness.

Yeah
*nods*

Alright. 1stly I would like to say the concerts were great. Hella fun, and although I looked like a mofo out of place I must say its pretty neato altogether. And a j2 girl ask me for my number! Ha.. she asked Brian for my name at 1st.. yep yep. Not trying to hao lian im just so very flattered and happy. Haha =P (for fuck's sake, its usually a guy who asks, so that doesn't fucking mean a girl can't, what century do you live in Confucius)

Anyway, my template is not yet updated because as usual im being lazy, so don't mind the broken links and such. Alright, anyway here's another load of crap worth some consideration about, because if your readin my blog to such details your probably really damn bored.

What is Freedom of Speech? Looking through the newspaper forums and such, whatever, you can see a similiar defination of the word. Dictionary.com defines it as the right to express information, ideas, and opinions free of government restrictions based on content and subject only to reasonable limitations.

Well done. But what does it mean to me? To put it more simply in the huge complicated idea I have of what it means, it summarises generally as the language of which you express a common restricted idea. Or in laymans terms, saying something but in your own way.

For instance, I think that making volunteery work complusary (don't mind the existant contradiction) is stupid. But am I allowed to say that? Nah, because by voicing that out im "insulting" the makers of the law, which might get me into trouble and indirectly meaning that I do not get what I want to say.

What I am allowed to say however, things in regarded that doesn go ACCORDING to the law, and not OPPOSING IT. For example, perhaps the law is intended to make people feel more encouraged to do volunteery work, but the law is doing otherwise. We're "allowed" to comment that the law is not effective in that way. At the furthurest, we could say that the law is useless to a certain point (which brings one at a dangerous and sensitive level), but lets face it, we're never allowed technically to say that the law is crap and lets fucking scrape it.

In other words, "freedom of speech" means that you are allowed to prove your point in a non-formal manner. In any language, broken grammer, bad vocabulary, doesn't matter, because HEY TIMO WE SUPPORT FREEDOM OF SPEECH YOU ARE FREE TO SAY WHAT YOU WANT AS LONG AS IT DON"T PISS ME OFF.

(this simply means I can't say somebody has a shit face, I can say her face ish nwot viery ahppealiin')

What we really need is "Freedom of Opinions And Expressions". What does that mean? It means we're allowed to think that you have a shit face, and say it right in front of your face you have a shit face. Its true that young people have ideas, in fact, the younger the better, and the smarter the person the better. Why is "creativity" so valued? Because for once, stereotyping (thinking everything the same way) is not appreciated and thinking differently is. So we need "fresh, young" ideas from youngsters who have not met the boring faces of retards and thus marring our youths and becoming old mundane hags.

New ideas, works people they solve problems in a way people never used before. This might usually be a more effective way than the traditional methods. Thus, ideas are valued. (like I said before, the younger the better, the smarter the better)

So what happens?

Ideas comes in 2 forms. Totally brand new, or criticism.

As with 99.9992098409328093% of the damn stereotypes, CRITICISM IS SHUNNED. Why? Because they are usually not pleasant to hear. If your ugly, and I don't tell you, you won't know, and you remain ugly forever. If I tell you, you get pissed off and slap me, and you remain ugly. If I tell you, you eat it and change, you might just look pretty again. Simple concept. I have no other more direct ways of putting this accross.

And people don't accept criticisms. So they are out of the question of being an effective way to market ideas except to the few rares who can get the shit scolded out of them and still feel like its an effective way to improve them (two thumbs up for these thick skinned mofos)

For fresh new ideas, people will never accept "absurd" ideas. In the end, we have to

1st - Present it in a stereotyping manner so that dumb stereotypers understand.
This means we have to give it to them without giving it to them. In other words, we stereotype but package it like a new idea. Like with the shit face example, we say you look unpleasant because your face is dark and lumpy, and is a high attraction to flies for some reason. Crap around, in the end, we still don't get to say that that person has a shit face. What's the point of making everything sound nice but useless?

2nd - Presenting it in a non offending manner. Meaning we throw the pie in thier face but do it with less force. Like, your face looks like dung (instead of shit). This usually kills the appeal factor in new ideas, thus losing thier purpose altogether. What's the point of a new idea that needs to be repackaged into an old one?

These 2 simple factors kills the "smart and youthful"ness in people. Therefore, overtime, they become another useless dread of the society who have stereotype thinkings.

Its like allowing people to gamble, but not in Singapore. Or allowing people to smoke, but you can't smoke everywhere unless you have approval. How is that making a difference? Like I said before, if you wanna let people smoke, then give them the freedom to. How would you like if we're all restricted only to eat our meals everyday at a given spot because if we eat elsewhere we might dirty other people's corners? And in anycase, a casino WILL Be open anyway. This is likely just to see how many people actually oppose to the opening of a casino locally, so the government can calculate the odds of setting one up. As long as it makes money, the government will have a part in it. Why else do you think transport services are all within the governments grasp? Why do you see them promoting cheaper medicines at government affliated health centers/hospitals (as compeition to private sectors and clinics)? Because these are essentials and therefore a sure money maker. Why don't you see the goverment susidising factor security thus greatly reducing the chances of workers and staffs of falling sick and meeting with an accident in the 1st place? Because there is no money to earn from there. You might wonder, TIMOTHY YOUR WRONG BECAUSE YOU SEE THE GOVERNMENT CONTRIBUTES TO STUFF LIKE EDUCATION.

Yeah your right. Which country has a bulk of people who votes for a government that DOES NOT SUPPORT EDUCATION? Pure bullshit. Im in the private sector, I should fucking know about the costs and shit.

Headache now, too late and sleepy. Ahhhhhhhhh im so lonely =(
I need to pick a girl, hanging out with guys all the time is boring =P ^^ (no offence to my meis and jies who've been out with me, yeah i appreciate it, but its just different lah. i got my teen cravings =P)

ps. lately blogger has been having fuckload of errors, so comments are buggy. also, I haven blogged so much for a long time, so pardon for confusing statements/sentences and language errors.

SwS ComWinds 2005

2005-03-11T01:15:00.000+08:00

Ok, actually I had plenty of stuff to say, but sadly blogger had to ruin all that shit by harbouring an internal error until now which im too sleepy to blog. So.. another crappy update. Sorry =(

Here's a wing I sketched a while back. Enjoy ^^ Been spending my time on trains and bus rides on drawing pictures and writing poems.

And...

I'll be wearing a butterfly collar white shirt with cuffings, a black blazer, black pants and shoes, white bow tie, standard stuff to looking like a total mofo. Shall be playing with the main band as a member of the youth winds. Yep yep *nods*.

And then there's O levels to register next week. Will have to see how it goes, im still considering certain subjects. But its all looking pretty awesome thus far except for that fugly chinese. Oh well. =D

Take cares people, enjoy your coming holidays. Don't forget to ask me out!!! I also holiday ok =P

And like I said, I should be updating more regularly now for this period. Update of template soon as well as more cursing of assholes to come. (too tired, but I wanted to talk more about the casino and smoking issues, oh well)

Sleep!

edit: ps. Sylvester and Maia are getting married! Wtf??! If that is true, then I totally can't stand Maia already. :S

Update Update

2005-03-06T19:11:00.000+08:00

Ok, so I've been lazy lately. But how surprising is that? Not very, so, yeah.

Anyway, I expect a major update soon, and i'll probably be actively blogging sometime soon. So watch this space guys.

Oh yeah, nose studs (whatever you call it) are sexy. Not the ring ones, but just one dot. They look good on all kind of girls ranging from ah lian to that whats-her-name plain jane next door.

Too bad I was too lazy to find a chio bu asian with a nose piercing, but trust me it looks really good. Mmmm.

Valentine's Day

2005-02-18T23:18:00.000+08:00

Wooot. I don't know what to say, but im blogging because adelene reminded me of my "promise" (which i always break unless your the one of course, valentine's day topic after all ^^) so here I am blogging.

So what was I doing that day? Out of course (but most unfortunately, with guys). So anyway as I was going back, I was on the MRT which was for some reason damn crowded. Saw girls with stalks of roses etc... and suddenly I saw this couple wearing extremely formal and elegant, and the lady had a small bouquet of roses.

Timothy's Point Number 1
Never, ever, go on a high class date, and take MRT home. It just spoils the mood for me. I don't see why they can't afford a cab or something for just one day. Dating on crowded MRTs is a teen thing man, don't hog our space >.<

And do you always find it hard to get roses on Valentine's day itself and forced to choose some gay colours like green or black (whatever its by random), and then you decide to act smart and buy it early and waste it? Maybe next year you should try growing some... green bean plants or whatever. Then you can make use of your science education and water the plant with red dye. Then the green bean plant turns red! And you can give it and say its all taken care with love and blahdada and you have a cheaper present.

Poems are old fashioned, people will only laugh at them, please. We all have an education now. Poems are only good if the girl likes poems, or you guys are very close already. Those "workable" tricks only happens in movies and lame channel 8 serials.

And since, I have really no idea what to say, let me just crap about what my dream date will be like. (why the heck did I say that, this is my blog anyway)

Ok lah, actually I also don't know what to say. But I think it would be nice to do something quiet, because I never like malls and busy and stuff. Yeah to spend time of course, can't possibly be quiet ALL DAY LONG but maybe its because of the way I am and stuff, my character and all, I prefer my dates to have quiet "peaceful" moments. Like maybe a walk down a busy road or whatever. Central area is pretty awesome, there's this huge main road with all the cars and stuff. At night everything is dark you see all the headlights shining at you as they past. Then along the path towards the esplanade there's this area where its facing the sea. Can see all the lights from the boats and whatever lah. And the wind is pretty neat too. Woot.

MRT ride is pretty nice too. I mean like especially those quiet quiet trains. Or really late in the night (not a problem for me that is), the trains are usually quiet. More so for inactive lines like NEL. Oh well, I can sit and talk all date for a date. No shit. To me its probably way better than sitting down watching a movie or trying to dodge cars in the arcade. But yeah there's gotta be a limit or it'll be too boring of course, I just meant it in general.

Oh yeah, Comwinds 2005 on march 14 and 15! Too bad its not opened to public except for a few leftover seats which are probably too little left for us to distribute. Oh well. And I feel funny about having to wear suits o.O

Don't forget to watch American Idol =D

ps. oh, and good luck for common test too ^^

Public Transport Etiquette

2005-02-11T13:15:00.000+08:00

(If you are just looking around, please read the last paragraph 1st, thank you ^.^)

Ok, it's been a long time since I blogged, so I'll just babbler on some random stuff that happened.

This other day, I was going back home from the MRT, and as usually all is pushy and crowded and stuff when suddenly this guy came over and cut in front of me. That's fine, he was smelly and was like forcefully cutting in, and guess what, he SCOLDED ME FOR PUSHING. "Oi don't push lah." I was so pissed off that I scolded back at him, practically half shouting, with profanity included. And I SELDOM make a scene in public, let alone with words like fuck and such. Geez.

And I've drawn out a rough copy of how Singaporean MRTs are like. (and oh yeah about the alignment of normal passengers and passengers in rush? keep left my ass)

Being a civilised (civilised reads, having a rich culture consisting of high class morals and socially considerate actions, by my words) city, I would at expect an orderly manner of a queue, like in the green line states. Unfortunately, if you belong to those people cancelled in pink colour, you are not a considerate person; you are a dumbass. There are all sorts of people carrying funny things and thus suddenly becoming gods, I'm carrying a heavy bag of shit so I'm entitled the right of way. Yes that may be so, but its increasingly becoming all too common. "Heavy bag of shit" has no longer a good defination. Carry a light plastic bag of vegetables would probably grant you the same pass now. So from now on, no such bullshit favours. If your carrying heavy things, take a cab or get your own frickin' car.

And then there are another bunch who are questionably entitled special favours. Wheelchair bound (who have lifts which are abused by daily passengers anyway, who STILL fight and squeeze to get into a lift at that), pregnant ladies, and all sorts of weird people (madness, broken arm, coughs, etc.) all kinds of bullshit reasons. Why give privileges? Its either all equal, or none. Giving up YOUR OWN right of way for others is a CONSIDERATE PERSONAL ACTION, NOT AN OBLIGATION.

I don't give a fuck if your an old lady, if I think I'm god than I go first. On the other hand, if I am too free and I simply want to help, I can even lead help the old lady carry her things on the way up the escalator. Its all up to the individual. But in a crowd? Cut that wishy-washy crap, you'll end up wasting more time.

And this is even worse for people boarding buses, I don't even want to get into the topic of old aunties molesting my butt and stuff. And suddenly some bugger discovers he is in the wrong bus and he tries to push his way through the wall of people boarding the bus who doesn't want to be pushed. So what happens? Major pushing around.

And its not like I never seen good manners. I've seen this lady offering a seat to this old man (note, man usually means im a macho-don't-need-a-seat-from-lady-I-can-manage thingy), and he rejected the seat. But how did he reject? "Oh its ok, Im alighting at the next stop anyway, thank you very much" That's a model answer, memorise it by heart, and its more useful than some stupid english phrase (the azure blue sky reflected blah blah blah)

So, basically that's it. 1 whole month didn blogged *stretches*

Oh YEAH, Valentine is coming, so please introduce some Chio Bu or something. Cannot be more than 3 years of age difference (older or otherwise). KINS!
I'll blog again on Valentine's day of the day before, I promise. =D (ps. 3 days late but, happy chinese new year!)

Stupid names

2005-01-17T21:41:00.000+08:00

You know what? I've been hearing some really dumb names. Maybe they sound dumb because of translation or language, but its still dumb anyway. Most of this is in local slang so if you are from somewhere else (and I know you from some game) this might just be wasting your time. So there.

Chin Chow (xian chao). That's the black stuff that we drink in those kopitiam stall. I don't know what is his name exactly is, but it just sounds like that, and it makes me feel like laughing everytime (hey chin chow, want some herbal drink?)

Wen Fu. That translated in dialect (I can't recognise which) is WOON FU, which means Huan Ku. Bah whatever. One of my ex teachers had that name -.-

Dick Lee. Enuff said.

And while I saw surfing the net on this topic, I came across this site and this
http://www.funnyname.com/names/shortdick.jpg

Forget the surname, what kind of parents will name thier child Short? Such is the world.

Oh yeah, my brother was a nice show. It started our as a gay cry hug love all around kind of show, but it got better. I liked it. And the korean girl seems shitty at 1st, but the more I look the more I find she's chio. Damn. Next time I wanna migrate to korean and get a korean wife. Koreans chicks are the best.

Nothing much to talk about really. Sws concert yesterday unfortunately while good, it was boring. Sigh.

I might delete this blog soon. Im too lazy to update the links corner, or even to post at all. Just ran out of stuff. Life seems to pass slowly now that school started. Sian Bo.

On Tsunami

2005-01-06T01:56:00.000+08:00

OK so many people died. so wtf seriously? I've been trying to read up stuff on the net and all the bullshit I get is about the Tsunami? Grrrr.

So here's my 2 cents.

Get it over and done with.

Yeah its a tragedy and all, we all know it, so why fucking harp over it all day long? Now you see, everyday I read stuff about what happen on the newspaper and all that I know more than I ever wanted to. People died. So some celebrations are going to be toned down and stuff... so do it then. Why make it sound like such a big thing "CHRISTMAS CELEBRATIONS CANCELED". I mean come on. And now there's the chinese new year thing too. So what? I bet Lee Hsien Loong talks about being sensitive and shit and about why not to celebrate and when he goes home he opens christmas presents with his children (or grandchildren for that matter)

And with all that aid crap and suck up stuff? I just can't stand it. As a nation we're like an individual, we're not OBLIGATED to help, we help because we feel compassion and pity for the victims. Not because look Japan donated 5 million we're USA we can't lose out quick pump some money in! And in the end where all the money came from? Tax payers. Do we have a say?

We as fellow Singaporeans probably have to feel sorry for the victims, why? Because the government said so. We donate whatever we can. Since when did charity become a sucking up process and a necessity? If we want, we donate, if we don't, we don't. But who cares anyway, since we're not the ones in control and everybody pretty much accepts the fact that when you pay tax, your money is gone.

Oh sure, I DO feel sorry for the victims. In fact, you probably heard about those people in charge who were suppose to make such a thing much of a less impact (meteorologists, ministers, etc.) getting sacked because of thier incompetency in making a successful evacuation or even trying at all. Why? Lets say such a huge shit happens once a year in a country, that means we can only test if one of such a person is doing his job properly every year. This means that there are probably much more people doing jobs like that sitting on thier desk eating donuts and watching cartoons. Damn figure heads.

And oh what about cross border ties? The whole south east asia nobody were confident enough of a Tsunami occurence? How about Singapore? Wow we have high tech stuff and shit and yet we couldn't even detect a Tsunami hitting some kilometers away? And lets say even if we did detect, do you think we're going to do anything about it? "Nah... they will make thier preperations im sure.." And suddenly this happens and "OK GUYS LETS MOVE OUT AND HELP THEM. WE ARE ALL FELLOW ASIANS AND WE HAVE TO HELP OUR BROTHERS."

What a turn off. All these texts make me sick. No more fucking Tsunami please.
And fuck school, im pissed.

RASHES

2004-12-30T23:22:00.000+08:00

Ok, 1st off, im back. Went to christofle's house to stay for one night. Don't know what I going to do next and not in the mood to talk about it so next.

I went to see doctor. Because I came out with rashes. Turn out the doctor said the rashes were nothing and it just comes out for no reason and takes 6-8 weeks (yes, 2 fucking months) to go off. So im stuck with harmless unspreading rashes for 2 FUCKING MONTHS? Omfg. I hadn't been sick for a way long time, and usually its just a minor fever or whatever (and jin yuan reminded me of this, my perfect attendance that is broken because I decide to play truant)

Anyway, Im starting a new MSN service. Im drawing up anime profiles for people. So if you are interested, please contact me. Email or whatever. And yeah, its pretty fun and its only for fun, so don't tell me blah blah and shit. I won't do for you if I don't feel like or I think you suck (which is prolly very rare), and even if you are a stranger I wouldn't mind. So.. there. =D

Please take a look. Stuff still looking shitty but I will update in time. Just not enough time at my hands now.

Have a good time people. Hope all had a good year =D

Short update, but there.

Profile Project

ps. JUN WEI ASKED FOR BOA PICS FROM ME! EAT HIM!!!! *gobbles*

Going Surfin'

2004-12-28T23:15:00.000+08:00

Anybody wanna go Sri Lanka for surfing? I heard there are some huge waves there.
Fun with Facts
I found that extremely lame and funny. Sometimes sciencetists are a little over paranoid.

Going to blog about IT stuff today, so if you are not into this, it will bore you. Oh yeah, im not pro or whatever, just stating my stand. Im in a like, passive mood. Haha. Skip to the bottom for more stuff regarding us.

Now, I haven remember to ask people about this until I gave out 2 recently. Does anybody want Gmail invites? I have plenty.

Now what is the big fuss with Gmail? Last time, hotmail had around 2mb of space (I honestly can't remember, but its just little) And im pretty sure yahoo was around there. Then there are reports about hotmail having server problems etc... and then they started deleting emails that are way old. Like 2 years old. So there were people unhappy. Even I had trouble with all the not enough space crap. Did microsft care? Naaaaaw. And they started suspending accounts after 3 months of inactivity and blah.

Then Google.com (well known for having extremely simply layouts) started an email service providing 1000mb of email space (it might have been 100mb when it started, from my memory, but I might have read 1 number off). That kind of space most of us can probably never even finish using half.

How did msn react? (Msn is owned by microsoft) They now provide 250mb of space (WOW, suddenly server congestion problems are gone). And with that all the other providers like yahoo and all are suddenly increasing thier space. From 2mb to 250 mb is alot. ALOT. That is one whole level of radical changes.

People always complained that computers are too expensive, but since microsoft own the computer monopoly, they can set whatever price they want. The optimum is to set as high as possible, yet as affordable to everybody as possible. Now there are more competition, thus prices are slowly getting deflated (unless its new product).

And even better, microsoft browsers IE (internet explorer) had a worthy rival called Netscape Navigator once. Then they decided to come up with more codes and stuff, and in the end IE browser could do so much shit that Netscape can't. So what happens? Everybody uses IE again. In case you don't know what firefox is, (do a simple check), now its getting very popular among users.

The conclusion? Technology is getting more advanced, and more accessible to the public. Competition have started to penetrade Microsoft's monopoly on IT (recently I heard on news they were suppose to share some info they kept private).

So, after so much bullshit, let me show u something.
http://www.viksoe.dk/code/gmail.htm

Storage space got pwned. Never worry about having not enuff space to store your files now. And I believe this will work out potential abuse at 1st, but once that is weeded out everything is gonna rock.

And a computer has 2 main uses. Work and Play. And 95% of this requires the use of internet. So we can say the internet is greatly important.

Downloads takes up 50% of the use of the internet. We download images, videos, mp3s etc. And the other half we use for connection between users and servers for chat or whatever. (continued below)

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NOW NEXT YEAR WE"RE NOT ALLOWED TO DOWNLOAD ANYMORE. HOW FUCKING CRAP IS THAT? I honestly am too tired today to flame anybody, so whoever set that law up or contributed to it, well done in screwing me up.

Oh yeah, thankz to our new prime minister too. With a cool accent (which apparently sounds like Goh Jia Hao of my batch in Nan Hua who talks like he has his fingers stuck in throat but waaaaaay cooler), he has contributions to the free trade rule between us and US (or rather, between us and united states -.-)

Now, the war against piracy is fierce. When we are no longer allowed to download off the internet (which as already not allowed since the dawn of time, just not inforced strictly), music companies who earn way too much (why else would everybody else want to be a popstar and have you heard of a star who DON"T EARN MONEY? EVEN SYLVESTER WILL PROFIT FROM THE MEDIA INDUSTRY) Now they are going to earn even more. Good stuff. And business companies will gain from the free trade rule. How about us teenagers?

Effects on Teenagers
-NO MORE FUCKING DOWNLOADS (say goodbye to anime, music, and BoA videos.)
-$7.50 to $8.50 Movie tickets (whoever watches movies on tuesdays. what are the probability of that happening. now instead of a recreation we are suppose to wait and plan it properly before going to a movie to save 1 fucking dollar?) And movies which probably has whiny cutesy bits in it so that it does not earn a NC-16 rating and above. And I don't know, future titles include stuff like, Pokemon The Return, Teletubbies 2005, The Adventures of Barney and Friends, and STARWARS (Look out, im Darth Vader, I speak like a mofo who can't sound his words out clearly through a really stupid looking mask yet im the leader of an empire. And watch out for Yoda, the dirty look old... whatever who is the wisest of all shits it seems. Watch out for that karate kick which will kill you when I have what? Laser guns and neon light swords which makes annoying ZZzZZzZZ sounds when I swing them around?)
-Reading more A maths textbook, casuing more stress and higher suicide rates.
-Going out more, and spending more money (which gives those business scammers more money) and higher chances of mixing bad company.
-Eating more, get fat faster
-Less use of computer, more addiction on television and console games (which is just as bad, you think less computer = more study?)
-NO MORE BOA VIDEOS

I can't think of anymore stuff. Just sleepy. Good night people. And fuck those assholes. Nothing witty today just boring ramblings.

Oh yeah, I know this long ago, but I just didn get a right time to say this. CLOVIS IS FUCKING PRESIDENT? Although all fags gets to do stuff like that, I wanna take this chance to tell you all what a mother fucker clovis is. But im too sleepy now, so maybe next time *yawnz*

And btw, Andrew would make a much better president. Joyce is ok to me though.

And just look at keagen. What the fuck has he done for people like me? Nothing. Ordinary folks need to be represented by the council. But nah, all we get are people like Keagen (or is it Kegan, no shit anyway) who makes suckers get recognised even more. Have you seen anybody lately who was recognised for being a good student whatsoever? How about, hey Kai Sheng did his homework today. Or, Kan Wei not pointing middle finger today? Nah, all you get is stuff like, LOOK! ITS @()*$)@#$)* THE LEADER OF *INSERT DUMB SUBJECT HERE* CLUB! He's the leader of XXX club, class councilor of X/X, top scorer of 200X batch, and look he's chinese has improved by a grade on this month's test! Lets promote him with a hardworking student of the year award as an encouragement!

-.-

Xmas Note

2004-12-25T13:46:00.000+08:00

Merry Xmas to everybody =D Thankz for all the emails and greetings, unfortunately I do not have anytime to reply them, but still alot of them made alot of difference and the some greetings froming from people that surprise me. Have a good day and year ahead.

Merry Xmas =D (why is it merry and not happy? oh well ^^)

Sey Baht Por!

2004-12-20T23:28:00.000+08:00

That's scolding a woman in a chinese dialect (I know but can't recognise them). That's what I've been hearing almost EVERY INSANE DAY.

Ok what the heck, lets post the usual way.

1st off, I discover "Joo" (pwned j00) originate from africa. They say you as "Jou". Now you know.

Now, those fucking neighbours need to get a life. When you marriage is in the rocks, please decide what you want to do. Im sure I've stated options in my last post, and Im lazy to repeat. Now if you decide not to, that's fine, but maybe try quarreling on the phone?

This mother ass fucker guy went to beat his wife up. She ended in the hospital. And by the way I would like to add that they are over 50 years old, and have 4 kids who are all pretty grown up and married. So FUCK YOU DICKHEAD WHAT KIND OF A MAN BEATS HIS WIFE WHO GIVES HIM FOUR CHILDREN? YOU OUGHT TO GET AN ASS BEATING AND GET YOURS SHIT BLEW THE DAYLIGHTS OUT OF YOU. FUCKING DISGRACE TO ALL CHINESE MAN. YOU THINK YOUR FUCKING MASCULINE WITH ALL THAT MANLY SHIT? EAT SHIT YOU MORON YOUR COWARDY BULLY-THE-WEAKER SHIT TURNS ME OFF. IF I WAS YOUR WIFE I WOULD GET A KNIFE AND CHOP YOUR FINGERS OFF WITH A CLEAN LOUD "BAM" IF YOU EVEN TRY TO POKE ME.

And then, its not just a slap or whatever. Its beaten until there are bruises and shit. I poorly grieve for her (partly because I know her extremely well because she is a nice lady who provide me with meals whenever she can when I was young, because she knew I was alone), and she doesn't have the .... what word should I use? Doesn't have the courage? The will? Whatever, when you are married to somebody for years, and suddenly because of an extremely bad incident even if you knew it cannot be changed, its hard to just divorce the person you once loved so much.

Now for fuck's sake, I swear I will kill (I typed kiss before edit wtf) this moron if he does any shit again. And your fucking shouting is pissing me off. One day I might just dig a hole in my house and throw things at your head each time you shout since you like to throw things so much. And im too lazy to go do a picture illustration of how I am going to do this.

And speaking of lazy, I have been on off the house for the pass week (in fact everyday I spent less than 36 hours in my house the last whole week). And I am too lazy to update my blog which nobody reads anyway, so therefore this is a REALLY late update.

And there was the chalet. I wrote a poem during the chalet, because I was really bored that night. I even wrote the bike down with Adelene to get a pen. Shows you how retardly bored I was. They sleep at like what? 12? What the hell?

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Night
The night's blues, of soft hues.
Still winds, a moonless scene.
By the table, feeling vulnerable.
Cold.
He looked upon the faraway horizon,
like an unnoticed ship lost in her vast seas.

The bottle of Jasmine Orange Tea mocks,
sweet like her smile.
Sense, dissuaded him.
And yet, like hauntings of a cemetary,
it plagiarized him.
And so blindfully led by temptation, he,
Succumed. Submitted.
Only to be cut by her words, like a sharp knife.
It hit violently, a small cut but a deep wound,
realisation, like fire on a match.

Noise, agonising, yet unavoidable.
The feeling never seem to be able to wilt,
eating his attention, constantly drawing his concentration.
A cup of ice, with careful wisp of smoking licking the air.
Like her chills, ever so prominent but gentle.

Bags of potato chips sprawled on the floor, exciting flavours.
Like the exhilaration she brought each time she smiled.
Counting the stars in the sky,
streaked across a field of darkness,
He was unfazed.
Dawn was approaching. Another day is born.

Jasmine oranges
A knife
Noises
Ice
Chips
Endless Stars

And when the day dies, and all comes down to rest,
he will think of her again.
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Don't comment what you think shouldn't be, thank you. If you don't know then forget it, you aren't suppose to know.

And oh yeah, did I mention BoA rocks? like, DID I MENTION BOA ROCKS?!??!?! WTH. BOA ROCKS!!!!!!!!!!!
Her songs are so kickass, she is pretty face WITH GOOD VOICE. Do you know how incredibly rare it is for this combination? And to make things even more kick ownage, SHE KILLS PEOPLE WITH HER DANCE MOVES. Omg. End of story. BoA > all. (and then there's rui en, but heck don't feel like talking about her now, and no I am not fickle minded I still like rui en). I hear her songs I feel young again. (not that I am old so, I feel like a child again. Yep yep *nods in a kiddish manner*)

Here's one more. Too big to put in my blog, but too nice for me to cut it for resize it. So I hosted it on another link.
BoA Close Up

IM STILL LOOKING FOR A TUITOR! So if got any lobang please email me or call me. I need teachers not supplementary tutors. Thankz in advance people.

Now that christmas is coming, here's whats coming up.
WISHLIST!!!!!!!!!!
Without furthur ado, lets kick some ass.

Christmas Wishlist 2005:
-Meeting Rui En and making friends with her
-Living next door to BoA
-A good stable part-time job for next year with gosu pay
-Get to know more of my friends better to upgrade to true friends (like gay Jun Wei, or maybe Andrew, I know im a good influence)
-Better photoshop skills
-Better eye for art (stop being stupid, it means eye-for-art kind of eye. Duh)
-Better literaturistic sense
-Better relationship with my parents (whom I hardly know, and love so much no matter how fucking idiotic I always say they are. And yeah I scold my mum bitchy at times)
-Play my instruments with more gosu (pro in korean) skills
-Blue Hair (and money to pay for it)
-Another computer (preferably an apple imac, used for work, and my current PC for gaming, and I hardly ever do consoles, just not my thing)
-SURROUND SPEAKERS! LOUD BOOMING ONES!
-Drum Set (a cheap one will do, collecting donations now)
-Get fatter
-Get to listen to more beautiful music
-Giving those fuckers a slap when I feel like doing it and get away with it
-Smallville 4
-More Rui En shows, and less kissing scenes unless Im the double
-Time to pass slower, because I don't want to become 16 and end my childhood (and that doesn't mean virginity too you pigs xP)
-Some Nan Huarian I like to win SGI 2
-Some Nan Huarian fuckers to get embarrassed and laughed at in SGI 2
-Make people around me happy, if not happier
-Spreading the love
-Develope anti mosquito cells
-Strengthen if not maintain my relationships with all my gan meis and jies and dis
-Able to afford more games to play
-Start an Art community
-Start a new blog on literature
-Stop prejudices and stereotypes
-Join Illuminati
-Change people's wrong image of me to who I really am (for starters, how about the Ah Beng one, and the Nerd one, and the Violent asshole one, the loner, flirt, vulgar barbarian.. hmmm. The cute one can stay by the way =D)
And last but not least,
-Good health and lasting happiness to everyone

Soon to come or never, I know, don't need to tell me. Its 1 now, I blogged for 2 whole hours (I always chat while blogging, and total text in chatting is roughly 3 times of my blogging text, you can do the estimation. My poor fingers don't feel anything because they are worked like that over the years. Time to rest them)

While I plan to make this a long post and stuff, I forgot what I wanted to say. Its ok really, because my mind is in a blank now anyway. Thankz for making my holiday worth while people.

OH YEAH. I read in newspaper about Dick (Cock eyed) Lee's concert. There were some idols criticising him. They were supposed to do so, instigated by Straits Times. Especially those who were criticised by Dick Lee himself during SGI auditions.

NOW WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU TRYING TO DO? I can't believe ST scooped so low to get a story. Life was like, 8 pathetic pages? (sorry I honestly can't remember at this time), and this pathetic story took 2 pages? Musical judges were shitty enough, and you had to let BAD CRAPPY SINGERS WITH REASON FOR BIAS AGAINST DICK TO JUDGE? Dumb comments like "He has no style" "He eats his words" "Outdated" "Too dramatic". Now, what kind of comments is that? Who the fuck are you to judge what style is? Or the difference between clear and cool pronounciation? Or what is happening and in? Or what is dramatic? What the fuck does dramatic mean anyway? This guy has 30 years, you expect him to sing the same type of shit for 30 years? AND 30 FUCKING YEARS, YOU EXPECT IT TO BE NOT OUTDATED? ARE YOU A FUCKING IDIOT OR SOMETHING? AND SINCE WHEN YOU GET TO HEAR OPERA SINGERS SING THIER WORDS CLEARLY? AND DRAMATIC WHAT THE FUCK IS THAT?

I can't believe ST gave this kind of crap report. Totally disaapointed me. I nearly puked my dinner out reading that shit.

Oh well, can't think of an ending. So End. Have a good day =D (or night ^^)

FLAVOURED SHOT SUCKS!

2004-12-07T23:39:00.000+08:00

Why? For one thing, I HAD thought that the blue was like a nice colour to spirit, and it tasted pretty good. Now, if you thought it was too sweet, NEWSFLASH FOR YOU: YOU ARE NOT SUPPOSE TO POUR THE WHOLE PACKET IN.

Ok, when they do not give enough flavoured powder in, people start complaining about Burger King being cheap and all, so they give you excess (how expensive can it get anyway seriously), and you pour everything in and decide it sucks. -.-

Anyway, I thought it was pretty good, and for just a mere 20 cents I always include it in my burger king meal. So on this day I went, I accidentally spilt some of the powder on my straw. No big deal, or so I thought. When I sucked the straw, that blasted powder burnt my lips. Yeah it stinged. So from now on, no more flavoured shot. FLAVOUR SHOT BLOWS ASS.

I have absolutely nothing to blog about now for today, Im lazy to think deep, and so I'll just talk a little about myself. Im GOING TO (this is totally unconfirmed, and subjected to change) start looking for tutors probably next week, and try to finalise my whole drop out of school business. Nowadays just slacking at home because I have not gotten a fucking handphone, and trying to find people to go out (asking online is really pathetic, and the lack of paper contacts is annoying).

Anyway, here's what I did for one of my friend today, earlier on. Took about 1 hour. Its meant to be a banner for her site.

By the way, I am sure a lot of you are frustrated over fashion stuff, so I found this totally perfect site on how to dress properly. Caters to all body types including asians. This is really cool. Check it out.
Extremely Cool Stuff

Oh yeah, I guess the final result of the voting Taufik(62%) Sylvester(38%) finally shut the hell out of everybody huh? Now people started to whine about votes being rigged, and they demanded the votes to be open. (THIS GREATLY REMINDS ME OF SUPER DUMB VOTING ISSUES IN MY SCHOOL BAND) Now that the votes are open, are you all satisfied? This proves a few things really.

-Reveal or not, do you think you can judge whether the votes are rigged? If the votes are rigged, they will always NEVER reveal the votes unless they can somehow hide the fact that the votes are tempered with. And if they do reveal, obvious they are not going to reveal votes and say "HAHA THIS IS THE RESULTS WE ACTUALLY SAID TAUFIK WIN ALTHOUGH SYLVESTER REALLY WON". Stupid idiots. But revealling the votes is a good thing, its just as good as some people who KEEPS assuming votes are real but never reveal them ever. Why? Too troublesome. Hell yeah I totally believe that crap shit excuse.

-Who the fuck would rigged the votes? Lets see, I totally know nuts about this, but if somebody messes with the telecommunication systems im sure he will be fined and jailed for it. All this risk for what? To make somebody who don't even give a fuck about you famous and rich? But then again, stupid people exist, so yeah.

-Mass votes are never 100%. Even certain small votes can't be assured 100% credibility (goes on rambling about some fuckers in you-know-where). Be it huge elections like USA president or tags for changing of laws in some country (I forgot where) or Singapore Idol OR SOME DUMB SCH BAND VOTES, ITS ALL THE SAME. So, eat it. Taufik won and honestly, half of us couldn't care less. Sylvester lost boo cry lose sleep starve, curse Taufik whatever, nobody gives a damn. Welcome to the real world.

And coming to the topic of pissing me off, my neighbours nearby are having maritial problems, looks like they are divorcing soon, but throwing shit around and screaming and shouting totally pisses me off. Look, you want to settle your family problems, throwing your televesion into the sink and going to the toilet all day to what? flush the toilet? and trying to see who can throw plates furthur away or trying to break the light bulb by shouting IS NOT GOING TO DO ANYTHING. Best way to solve a marriage problem is

A)Get a counsellor
B)Get a lawyer
if not,
C)Stfu and sleep

RUI EN ROCKS!!! Yay. Keep having fun in your holidays guys. Half of it is gone already. Haha.

1st S'pore Idol

2004-12-02T18:58:00.000+08:00

Jun Wei gave me the idea, and so I drew this on MS Paint.

Ok, so I can't spell T A U F I K properly. Give me a break already. I told you Taufyc would win. Even if sylvester wins, he will be flamed like jerry did. So in the end its up to how crazy his fans would vote, but it seems mass won. Even the way newspapers commented and the judges talk and those transcript from past idols such as olinda and from experts and blah blah, you could see all the media was biased towards Taufeeeg. I honestly thought sylvester sang that specially written dream thingy song better than Tauphixz, but anyway, he won so good luck for your career dude. After so much blogging about SGI, we finally know, TauFIK pawnz (KILL EM) all. Maia seem incredibly short yesterdae too, even shorter than dephane (and I remember Dephane was like shorter than andrew, so that makes Maia super short)

Oh yeah, Dick (no, im not being vulgar) sang that funny song pretty funnily. I didn't know he was like an opera singer. That song sounded really opera-ish with a rap like rythmn. Funny lyrics too.

ARCHAR TONIGHT, JIN YUAN REMEMBER TO WATCH MAN. Support Rui En! Whoooo. ;)

Local Policies

2004-11-30T01:10:00.000+08:00

(Note: This post probably will bore most people, especially if you couldn't care less about how the big things go on. And if you hate reading newspapers, go sleep now ^^)

Time to ramble on. Its 12 mid-night and this post is like 4 days (technically) late. And since I feel like I have alot to say, if I make everything nice and tidy it I might have died by the time I finished, so I'll do in a messy manner.

Recently everybody (or rather, people who bothered) have been busy with the debate about chinese. Although I did not listen to Lee Hsien Loong's side of the debate (and frankly, with that kind of voice it turns me off), I did real the transcript of Lee Kuan Yew's speech.

Basically, it is widely accepted that chinese will no longer be "forced" to students, rather it will be done on a selective basis. No shit? This is what is happening to us now anyway. We memorise words just for exams, and for most people we probably will not get to use it much for the rest of our lives. Perhaps the time for the chinese revolution is not yet prominent, but still, I highly doubt it ever will. Making chinese study a controllable factor is an extremly good option in my opinion. Parents (or the child in some cases) will be able to select how much do they want to put in either of the language. And my guess is that the majority will pick english over chinese. Why? FOR THE SIMPLE FACT THAT THE "UNIVERSAL" LANGUAGE WILL ALWAYS BE ENGLISH.

Now lets see, when you are properly equipped with english, you can communicate with the majority of the world. Yes, china market is expanding, and while we learn chinese to fit in, they learn english to fit to the greater us. Greater in the sense of majority. Why complicate things by using two language if we can use one. If the whole world can simply use one language, we kill all this idiotic nonsense.

And for the sake of cultural diversity, it will never happen. At least from what I can foresee.

And there are so many people who barely scrape through thier chinese exams every year and hardly speak chinese. Yet majority of them could read and write basic chinese, and communicate with the language. That is probably enough. In the 1st place, we can't understand most of the chinese that China's chinese speak anyway, and SO WHAT if we can?

Somebody comes to do business with you. 1st thing you realise is he has a rich knowledge of your country's culture and heritage which you probably don't even know yourself. Other than basics like greetings and table manners, the other knowledge are probably redundant. Hey you can write with a brush BIG DEAL? If I needed that skill I would have gotten a more professional local. You can speak big words WOW? Who gives a fuck whether you know my country or heritage. Yes, 1st impression matters, but if an ang mor who speaks pure english can offer me a better deal than you do, do you think I will give you the deal because you can speak chinese well and paint a few words? Ha.

But of course, you might say that's my narrow point of view, but all in all, I believe the chinese will merge into our english speaking world, and the chinese language will be nothing more than our ethnical identidy.

Smoking in pubs are on probabtion to be banned or not. Personally I think its dumb. Have you gone to pool tables where the room is all smoky and you literal see smoke? That's just typical because people go there to smoke. Just like the majority of the toilet will always smell. When you ban smoking in pubs, you are taking away a part of thier identity. That's like allowing students to bring handphones to school but not allowing them to use it in school. Make sense? Of course, people still get to smoke around and all, but if you are concern about public health and stuff, then ban smoking altogether. If you are going to give people the freedom to kill themselves, then so be it, instead of being wishy washy about it. Its not like people start smoking in pubs only recently to cause a menace. As far as I know smoking in pubs has always been a common thing. Go ahead, introducing gore pictures and causing troubles to retailers and harrassing smokers to quit smoking, now ban smoking in pubs, maybe next time you could limit the amount of lighters sold to each person too.

While my general perception of a democratic government is that it always puts economic issues over social issues, it is equally important. Yeah, they ALWAYS claim that they put them on an equal issue, but we know better. There are many things that could be done to improve our social standards. As far as I can remember PAP strives for providing the basics, housing and food and education, and we have to fight the rest for ourselves am I not wrong? (sometimes I sleep too much and dream out lessons that didn't exist)

Perhaps I'll do a more extensive post on suggestion to improve on our social life. Suddenly I feel like I have much to say but little determination to type it all out. Haha.

TAUFIQ > SYLVESTER
GO TAUFIQ! I SUPPORT YOU ONLY BECAUSE I DON'T LIKE SYLVESTER.

Rui En rocks. Keep rocking! Archar premiers this thursday =D

Quick Spalsh

2004-11-20T23:50:00.000+08:00

-Changed scrollbar, hopefully looking 3D now.
-Changed links corner, I couldn't squeeze everything so I just anyhow >.<
-Going to Malaysia on monday.
-Change anti-toolbar script.
-Looking for links, most of the ebloggy ones don't work anymore, apparently they changed the domain name system.
-Started chatting alot today.. something I hadn't been doing for a long time. Haha.

Tomorrow I have a really boring wedding lunch to attend, then rush for SwS band prac. Don't know if there will be anything to do after or not. Having no phone suckass. ZZZ.

Anyway, just update your links for me in commet or whatever. Enjoy your holidays people =D

And technically this page will load at 2/3 of the speed it used to for the old skin. Haha. Anyway lately I've been starting to use email alot again (issin't it weird how some things go backwards?). Oh well.

Random Ramblings

2004-11-19T23:13:00.000+08:00

Ok, so I've no idea what to name title this post because I think I hadn't had a long serious post for a while. I put "Eating Bananas" at 1st and on second thoughts, the name would be an irony. So here goes anyhow.

Today somebody went hong kong, tomorrow BGA (reads Big Girlish Andrew) going back to indonesia, next week tolfey going hong kong too. Im too bored over here. Maybe next week I'll find my cousin to go malaysia or something. Nowadays really nothing to do. Go out, so limited places. Either movies or arcade or walk some funny places. Honestly, walking with guys is so totally unfun, most of the times. Unfortunately im not the kind who likes gay jokes and pushing around and stuff like that. Nope. Somehow the few people I can really walk and talk with end up with some complicated stuff and then we can make something more funny out of it. More timothy kind of funny? Like, words and content funny them monkey faces kind of funny. Or something like that. Blah >.<> Guys when it comes to phone calls. Or perhaps Olinda wasn't chio enough. But anyhow, Malay girls vote for Taufiq, and chinese girls vote for Sylvester. Who will think will win? Walk down the street, ask the 1st 10 girls you see whether they like sylvester. I bet 80% will tell you they do. Now do the same for the 1st 10 guys you see. I bet 80% will tell you they dislike him. Sylvester is not enough handsome in my opinion. But whatever man, I don't look at guys.

And please let Taufiq win, when Sylvester smiles he reminds me of a pig. I can't stand that totally.

And as for judges, personally I think for the whole show now they always try to think of witty things to say. BUT it seldom worked out. People like Ken flame for the sake of flaming, although sometimes he make alot of sense, most of the time he just crap for the sake of it. Pretty darn obvious. Florence is a little crappy at times, but other than that she gives sympathetic useless comments as usual. Weird tastes. Dick, name tells all. Douglas is my favourite judge of all times. I like him, I think his comments are sensible, and he don't try to act witty all the time. Even when he called Taufiq "BRUDDAH" I didn't find that much of an event, like he's trying too hard or something. 2 Thumbs up for Douglas man.

And so, as I just said, please let Taufiq win. As usual I won't vote because its a waste of money and Im too lazy anyway. Haha.

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Remember this chio bu post?
http://ztife.blogspot.com/2004/09/pfffffft.html

Today im going to do PART 2! BWAHAHAHHA.

Oh yeah, you could take a look at how nice sylvester look too. I swear I didn't edit that post, it was written long ago and left untouched (and do you think i'll go into such great lengths just to degrade him? naaaaah)

I'll make this fast since I don't want to take too long...

That sunday I was watching Super Sunday. They feature celebrities and thier childhood crushes? On this particular episode (which if you have, please send me), the guest star was Hou Xiang Ting. So they got her crush over and she was like so shy and all, DARN she was DAMN CUTE. Haha. So so cute... but she's not really photogenic, and there issin't alot of pictures of her, and her hair is really nice except for the fact its curly which kinda turns me off. But here's one picture of her. Not really great but oh well. Its chio bu picture so MAKE DO =D

She's 22 this year.

She looks a little like Hebe too.

She also look like another hong kong actress, although I don't know the name, too hard to find out anyway. And scary part, she also looks like Jet Li (Li Lian Jie)?

I couldn't resist. One more pic, big one from magazine. Sadly to save bandwidth and load time I had to cut it small and do injustice to her long straight nice hair.

And to think, all these pictures are 3 years old. Meaning she has grown even more chio now, which is what I last saw, curly hair and stuff. Wheeeee.

Now, who don't know Rui En? Local star. I 1st saw her on a downloaded video where she was made fun off by Jay Chou (as a joke to set the record straight). He is her mentor, and she was releasing an album at that time. It was part of a news report or something. Then I saw her at the chinese unfunny comedy with that horse-faced DJ (I have trouble remembering guy names unless they are assholes). And then now she is in that 9pm chinese show. What can I say? Nice long hair, cute face with cubby cheeks that gets a little unnerving at times, but heck, CHIO! Oh my god. Haha.

Its late now, I'll find a few pics of her and that's it. Maybe next time I'll find more. Her cheeks so chubby make her look so cute. Then her long hair is like mighty fine. I seldom seen hair as good as that.

Here's one. Doesn't really show her face well though.

Here's one more of her. When she was younger, and she's smoking you can see. Anybody can tell me what school is that from the uniform? And please don't flame her for smoking. I don't care really. If I don't like, I don't smoke. What others do is none of my business anyway, even if they are chio bu. Besides, I've had friends who smoke since primary school.

I also found a very old video of her promotion of her album. With Jay Chou inside because he is her mentor. I was searching for videos of him and she happen to be inside. Haha. The date was Thursday, April 17, 2003, 8:26:12 AM. That's so long ago. Haha.

That's about it. Im sleepy. And template is still incomplete, i'll find time to finish. Feedback on whether this post is easier to read now, or the old one is easier to read, would be helpful. And any reported broken links or errors I would be grateful for. Thankz.

Take care all =)

ps. Oh yeah I saw dephane on tuesday near raffles place!!

Under Construction

2004-11-19T22:32:00.000+08:00

Rest for a while, then I'll PROBABLY update. Template still abit unfinished, heck I'll do them another day. Lalala. Check in tomorrow or late tonight =D

Defination of a FUCKING LIAR

2004-11-12T22:52:00.000+08:00

So, I was playing maple story and doing my stuff. Singapore idol pissed me off because Dephane got voted off (malay girls vote for taufiq, chinese girls vote for sylvester, Olinda is not that chio, what the fuck are the guys doing). This shows that guys don't vote that much, and this is much based on spam votes. So fuck this show as usual.

And then I was talking to anjolene, and she told me about this class stuff. So I stopped training and started replying msgs. And true enough I got pissed. Turned off maple story, came to msn and switched on the TV. There survivor was showing, displaying all the usual boring shit and sexist nonsense. No shit.

Guess what? If im staying, I would be in 3/7 next year. So 3/7, your lucky I didn stay or you guys are doomed. And then I was told kai sheng and all different class.

Whoo.

WHAT THE FUCK!

Apparently, Foo Suan Fong our lovely principal gave us a fucking bullshit (as I told you, its all crap) about us staying and putting all of us in the same class. So what's with the spilt? Nice going "friend", now what's up with all this class thing? HUH? Where the fuck is your professional ethics? Don't give me bullshit about putting us together what so ever just to con people to stay in the school, and what your kind enough to accept us and shit, because guess what? I didn take any of your bullshit and I DON"T GIVE A FUCK.

So, it doesn't affect me. But IT AFFECTS MY FELLOW RETAINEES. WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU TREATING US LIKE? DOGS? LURE US WITH A BONE AND AFTER WE GET INTO THE CAGE YOU THROW US SOME GARBAGE? FUCKING LIAR. THAT"S WHAT YOU ARE. NOT EVEN A FUCKING EXPLAINATION.

My font will probably get larger and larger, so I'll try to keep all in small caps.

Now, after all your crap, time to spill some beans.

Zhi Yan, my dear friend, got sick. So she has to stop school. Now Mr Foo gave her extremely professional options. Repeat Sec 3; Take exam and if fail, go NA stream; Take exam and pass and go as normal. She had like 3 weeks. How much of chance did she stand? And all of a sudden she is allowed to do whatever. Nice going.

In the office, he told me about all the busy crap he is doing. Not to mention that when I was about to get my caning, he told me to take a picture with him. How funny is that? Is mockery that funny? Would anyone like me to throw mud on them while they are trying to clean sand off thier feet? What the fuck is that?

Whatever, im too pissed to dig up more stories. Simply to put, with the extremely perfect example of Band (yeah not shit don't turn this post into a fucking band argument) and Retainees, im convinced that the school policies seriously does NOT coherent with my morals. We're supposed to do our shit and mind our business because we're told to do so? PUT YOU IN THAT CLASS SO YOU SHUT THE FUCKING HELL UP. PUT YOU TO DO THAT SO YOU FUCKING DO IT. ASK YOU TO ACT LIKE A DOG AND YOU WILL FUCKING DO IT. And after that, come make friends with us.

That's absolutely the right thing to do. After all, im sure ALL the principals do that. Right? We have to be friendly and shit. It always works. And when time comes, lets be fierce and tell them we mean business. NO CLIMBING OVER THE FENCE UNDERSTAND? THAT"S A FUCKING OFFENCE WHICH WE CAN ALL GET OUR ASS WHOOPED. SO DON"T FUCKING DO IT. And here, have a banana.

My Singapore Idol

And teachers are the same, they never point mistakes. Oh We do etc. etc. blah blah blah... CUT THE CRAP. All the sucking up morons are always the same everywhere. This shit is simply not worth our time. When you change our classes, its simply fucking wrong. It doesn matter what you did it for or whatever, your broke your trust, your blown your shit, and best of all, YOU PROVED MY OPINION OF YOU RIGHT. So, have fun, my godly principal. We all love you.

PS. I challenge anybody to come prove me otherwise about what I said. No, don't give me opinion bullshit "Nope I think he did it because he had his reasons he is right blah *insert bullshit here*". And tell me how much you love our sch staff and principal. I'll love to hear how insanely good he is. Don't add bad shit just because its my blog. If you think he is good, let me hear your reason. If any that is.

PPS. Stuff like "He is good because he canes students when they do bad" is also bullshit btw because if any principal doesn't do his job he should be shot dead and my thumbs stuffed up his nose. There. Eat it. Im still fucken pissed.

PPPS. And i delayed the changing of template because yet another shit. I might do it tomorrow without a new post. Fuck this.

BUSH WON BWAHAHAH

2004-11-04T20:52:00.000+08:00

Dang, lets talk about SGI 1st.

Taufiq keeps raising his eyebrow and the way he close his eyes look so unnatural. Gee.

Daphane ROCKED the 1st song. Omg. I starting to think she's good. Is this because everybody else sucked worst not? Weird.

I never liked leandra. And she spoilt the Alicia keys song with her high pitched crap. >.<

Olinda is soso. The 2nd song was kinda bad and KEN LIM SAID HE LIKED IT? God either he has seriously funny tastes or he is a huge attention seeker. That song was obviously bad PERIOD. But at least she is the only one who bowed instead of doing all the funny dumb act cute actions. Nice job.

Sylvester? Oh my god he made Justin sound like a gay. And for I swear (yet another great song spoilt) he like to drag all the notes. Grrrr.

Oh ya, BUSH WON. Haha. I have nothing much to talk about really, I just thought the best tonight was Dephane. I went to read up on the election stuff abit (trust me, I was REALLY bored).

My friends, it was here that we began our campaign for the presidency. And all we had was hope and a vision for a better America. It was a privilege and a gift to spend two years traveling this country, coming to know so many of you. I wish that I could just wrap you in my arms and embrace each and every one of you individually all across this nation. I thank you from the bottom of my heart. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.

Audience member: We still got your back!

Thank you, man. And I assure you – you watch – I'll still have yours.

So much for propaganda.

And I went to read the blog and the comments. I seached for keyword "fuck". Some quotes:

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the civil war begins nov 3. we are so fucked.
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FUCKING FOX IS CALLING OHIO FOR BUSH!!!

THEFT OF DEMOCRACY!!!

PITCH FORKS AND TORCHES!!!
PITCH FORKS AND TORCHES!!!
PITCH FORKS AND TORCHES!!!
PITCH FORKS AND TORCHES!!!
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Fuck it. I am never voting again in this "democracy". And I will be damned if I ever pay another penny in tax dollars.
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FUCK YOU LEATHERNECK!!!
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As it goes, he probably never ever bothers to read them (afterall who would?) and there are like 10 comments in the front saying FIRST!!

What the hell. Fun stuff. Shows that people like you and I are still easily manipulatable.

ps. OMG that chinese show at 9pm the swimming instructor wore that yellow nike/addidas shirt I HAVE EXACTLY THE SAME ONE! Cost about 30-50 bucks too. Media Corp is cheapskate. *shakes head*

US Elections

2004-11-02T22:46:00.000+08:00

Guess what? Indian astronomers predict kerry would win.

But guess what? I support Bush, and even if I didn't support him, I believe he will win. Based on some research and reading around.

Talk more about it later. I don't like kerry because he's looks funny and talks funny too. Contradicting contents.

None of my business anyway, but seriously singapore politics is like *yawnz*

So, there ya go.

VOTE BUSH!!

ps. im too lazy to find pictures.

pps. there's some issues with this template and the site, comments don't load, and sometimes contents are broken or page can't even load. im informed. that's why im changing template, but im think of how to make big text look neat, because small text pisses me off -.O

And it comes

2004-10-30T22:34:00.000+08:00

Whoooo. I have an annoucement. After looking at my GOSU results last entry, Nan Hua has decided that it was extremely superior in comparison to my intellect by a fucking long shot. So, Mr Fook (whoops, i meant fool) (blah i mean foo) decided not to promote me.

So what now? Change school, retain (and get to be in same class as all those cute girls!!) or take fucking private.

All sounds good, but im against retain. Why? After surviving a whole fucking year of borderm im SUPPOSE TO DO IT ALL OVER AGAIN?

Considering my options, i highly doubt either of them will do me good. As it goes, if you change of all nan hua students, retain is a non-considerable choice. Honestly does it look like im interested in all the "superb" (note, subjective adjective) facilities?

Wow WE HAVE LIFTS! 6 STOREY BUILDING! 5 STAR TOILETS! HUGE QUADRANGLE! And anybody noticed the BANNERS!?!? What sweet colours and nice decorations!!

Yeah, of course, aside from the fact that we can't take the damn lifts, climb stairs here and there just to get scolded for taking such a long time be travel between classes, morbid dead soap-filled money plants and wax smells floating around the toilet, quadrangle with broken floors and stuff (hey cool look its a pattern! we're beautifying the place for god's sake), and the banners with horrible grammer and absolutely no relation to one another?!? Look at the architecture! Red, grey, white, blue, nice colours. We look totally like the american flag. Did i mention those chiese words are an eyesore by the way? Lian what shit, forget it man.

And in changing sch vs private, I think private would be better for me. Why? because I have a short attention span in class. Sleeping, blah whatsoever. Private would ensure that I actually pay attention (although I didn't consider the possibility of sleeping in a 1 to 1 tution... hmmm....).

So in the end, IF I want to study, private would be better for me.

And that is my decision.

Meaning I will most probably not be in Nan Hua next year.

And all this shit aside, the hardest part is the social circle.

Bah. I don't know if this is the best for me. This whole shit sucks.

Anyway, went to thrash it out on the arcade today with andrew. Kinda fun, played for a long time. My hand got two blisters, and I took my nail cutter (washed, I know it ain't clean anyway) and cut 2 cute holes. The water just flowed out and there's 2 holes there. Bloody too but its gone. Guess its really deep. Haha. Heals faster like that anyway (unless it gets infected, and then green stuff grows and I get spiderman's climbing wall abilities.)

I'll be changing template soon, probably next post. A black one, because white makes me giddy. I think mostly make it look a little nicer and easier to read, since this boring text make it sleepish after a while. Don't know how, see 1st.

And this is what I made with photoshop during exams when I was free. Haha. Its made from basically normal text, I edited with photographs and such. How does it look?

In anycase, I'll update very soon. I don't beg for testimonials, but it would be really nice to write me one more before you guys forget me =(
My profile:
http://www.friendster.com/user.php?uid=3344643

Take care people. Enjoy your holidays!! ^^

My Gosu Exam Results

2004-10-22T20:49:00.000+08:00

Gosu means pro in korean.

Chinese: Didn bother calculating, too much calculation for a single digit
Eng: 48%
A Maths: 6%
E Maths: 33%
Bio: 45%
Chem: 18%
Social Studies: 32%
Geog: 28%
Comb Humanities: 30%

Monday's promo day. Most probably not going to survive. So, should I retain or change school? Or take O levels next year as a private candidate?

Lets face it. 3 disciplinary records, bad behaviour, bad academic achievements. Although I firmly believe most principals are stupid fucks, I doubt any of them will be that stupid. So all in all this sucks. I'll probably take as private candidate which is hopelessly boring.

Maia got out. Sylvester got in. Why? Because sylvester sucks, therefore he is in.

My god-grandmother died today. Im going for the funeral now. And for the next seven days. Sounds like so much comfort. I cut my hair before this because I can't cut during this period, and it looks like shit.

Glamorous life I have.

1 more week!

2004-10-21T20:27:00.000+08:00

God. Starting I see I already sian diao. Then dephane was singing a christina's song and I was like WTF and I quickly shut off the tv. Heng I never listen I know I will regret. And maia rocks, performance was good tonight just the dressing look a bit weird.

Ha.

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HA!

Sorry I can't resist. Did you see her dazed look? I wonder how she look during her secondary school time. Must be the cute girl sitting over there quiet and nobody gives a fuck about. Woot. maia rocks. So chio.

Im so happy today. Haha. After tomorrow I'm unleashed. Bwahahaha. Sch holidays coming wor! Any plans for the holidays? I was thinking about asking some people to malaysia, don't know if I could get people though.

Olinda's singing now, look at those gay arms, its thicker than my thigh! God. But what fucking nice voice. Gee. Scary. Olinda seem to rock too.

And good luck for O levels!!!! =)

edit:// Omg. Showing that swimming show. The battle between media corp and works is probably so intense they have to resort to flesh parades like that. Now that they merged... fucked up lah. Anyway, look at all the "chio bus"! Lol. The turn off is, the song is fucking annoying. I can't believe such a shitty song exist. Its not the slightest nice in anyway to me.

pps. Fiona Xie is sexeh! I think she has implants o.O (and sorry that male hormones is in my blood. Is there a problem?)

Yeah yeah, an icon for sure

2004-10-16T23:59:00.000+08:00

Ok. Been a million years since I updated, and although I said I was going to do one on Illuminati and stuff, hey that facade past, perhaps I'll do it another time. Right now I have some serious shit to flame about.
And yeah, exams totally sucked, don't talk about that. Haha =)
SINGAPORE IDOL.WHAT A SHIT ASS SHOW.
David got elliminated, jerry somehow earned himself a "JERRY SUCK ASS" title, which I don't know how the fuck happen, and the whole show manage to convince me its nothing but a shitty piece of money making scheme. Here's the deal:
Since the start of all episodes, i've noticed that Jerry was always being choosen instead of some other more quality singers. But this does not mean he sucks. Ever notice how beverly always scrapes though the shits? That's because she's been cursed. How? Take a photo of her, (im too disgusted to find one), turn the angle, and from side view you can see she TOTALLY LOOKS LIKE FUCKING NORIDAH (means a piece of shit in timoism), and how the heck was Jeasse elliminated? David? What the fuck? That bloody Leandra is still there? And holy fuck, she's my friend's ex classmate, Leandra was actually from CHIJ, which is like 300 meters away from my house!!! What the fuck, her attitude absolutely disgust me. She's ugly, her voice is nothing pleasant or unpleasant, just fucking boring, and she dance like a mofo (UGGG feet cramp jerk it, ahhh, jerk that cramped arm, bleah, jerk that cramping stomach, etc. etc.).
You happy now guys? Jerry's fucking out, now we have sylvester, a fucking piece of shit who smiles like a faggot and never fails to do it ever day (and blonde hair just sucks for you, how about going for black and grey patches? You know, like a special piece of shit I know), Dephane, whom I have never seen any talent, and look like she is going down the drain, Maia who simply fucking pwnz all and am going to win this because everybody else suck bad, Taufik who sounds like who Tau Huey Zhui (taste good hot and cold, but some simply can't stand that white stuff), Christopher (WHAT THE FUCK HOW IS CHRISTOPHER BETTER THAN EVEN BANANA MAN?), and olinda who can sing one or two songs but obviously that's about it and I don't even like that kind of songs.
Even william hung is better and definitely more skilled than these bunch of faggets (except maia). Sorry if some of them don't suck that much, but fact is, I hate more people more than I like. This proves this show suck big time. And yeah, I did calculations, it is possible to rig the results as long as you have enough friends. Im to lazy to post it, but think about it, all it takes is like 5 friends to sms all day long, it will be enough.
Every now so often you get a fucking commercial, especially before results. Its not even funny or suspence inducing anymore. Its fucking irritating and too damn obvious fucking media corp sucking up every single cent they can from the show. To advertising some other crap shows. Seriously get a fucking better advertisement tactic, don't screw us up this way. At least let us watch in peace, the show was already bad enough. And if you want it fair, why not make on vote per line? Or max 3? OH YEAH, THAT WAY YOU GUYS WON"T GET THAT MUCH MONEY, WHAT A STUPID SUGGESTION I THOUGHT OF.
Eye of a guy made me think all dating show sucked, and I've stopped watching bachelor/ette because of that. I can't think of more worst reality shows. Channel U > Channel 8 big time. Why did they sell? Damnit, I could propaganda the whole population how imbal this 2 channels are. Now that they are merged compeitition is over and here we go, all the shitty stuffs come back. That's why I never fucking addict to the damn TV. Its simply crap programmes. Buying SCV to watch some gay programmes? Seriously, I don't watch them enough to make it worth the payment, being alone. Can't a decent citizen come back from a hard day of pissy shit to enjoy a good show? Naaaah, not here in Singapore.
Man. After all this im too tired to type more about what happen today. Just to say, the fucking drink stall bitches and aunties can eat some shit. If there was another drink stall i'll fucking never buy from that shit stall again. Get some fucking manners and know your stuff assholes. What kind of a fucking worker in the service industry jeers? Giving me a sneering face and telling me how I should order my stuff, please you bitch leave me alone im fine with ordering the way I like thank you very much. Please stuff your face in that milo powder, I can't stand looking at your ugly eyes. Your stall blows. Im unfortunate to be stuck with you sluts perhaps to the end of days. Sad shit.
Apart from all this nonsense, good stuff do happen. Im so looking forward to tomorrow =)
Latez people, get some sleep and chill out. Its post exams after all. Time to get some life man *wink wink*

Timothy! Hmm.. why are...

2004-10-07T22:12:00.000+08:00

or rather, WHAT THE HECK ARE YOU DOING READING MY BLOG NOW? ITS EXAM PERIOD!!! OH MY GOD!!! DO YOU EVEN STUDY? DO YOU REALISE HOW IMPORTANT THIS IS? A FEW NUMBERS MAY CHEW YOU UP IF YOU GET THEM IN RED COLOUR AND UNDERLINED!!!

like,

Tan Hsiao Yu's Character: -49

Anyway, this is just to get your attention. Good to surf net and all around this time, relax a little, but please study. To the sec 4s, good luck studying for your O levels. Study hard people! Jia You!

Yeah, all this sound so un-timothyish, I know, im being weird lately, don't know why, but anyway, here are some more un-timothyish Timothys just for laughs. Or for my laughs. Whichever.

Take care and study hard! *wink wink*

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Some Technical Support dude in a workshop, apparently has scientific background, judging from the poor boring biography (I only read the title, and this explains plenty since I have tons of time to read that but found it boring anyway), he is most probably a loser.
http://www.worldbank.org/wbi/ilt-1/bios/timchan.html
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Some Sulptor. Remember the song The Painter - O town? Super nice song, and this guy has artistic talents I guess. No pictures.
http://www.undo.net/cgi-bin/undo/pressrelease/fpressrelease.pl?id=957970080&day=957996000
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Scroll Slightly Down, you'll see a guy's picture with Timothy Chan beside it. That's the one im featuring next. Apparently he's musical and some worship leader. Sounds like he's got backing.
http://www.jnxpress.org/offer_training__instructors-e.htm
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This person reminds me of my senior in band RENA!!! But in anycase, he is a philosophical person. Unusual path, yet share some similiarities.
http://www.polyu.edu.hk/~gec/staff/timothychan.html
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A whole personally webbie on himself! OMG. How many people actually keep these worthless, boring, and utter rubbish in the world of internet these days. Face it, nobody wants to read except your friends, who probably knew about it already. I can't be bothered to surf through, but a huge piccy. Look so unlike me. Haha.
http://www.du.edu/~tchan1/
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What can I say? This Timothy is just... the one man. I assure you this will not fail to grab your attention. A smartass too. This is just SOOOO NOT ME.
http://www.cs.uwaterloo.ca/~tmchan/
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ps. as you can tell, im in my usual pre examination jubilant mood. And I promise a good long post after exams. Especially one about Angels And Demons - Dan Brown, I finished the book in 3 days, and about 2 days ago. And a personal Ambigram which I did =) And yeah, I haven start, and im fucking trying to. Geezz.

Take It Back

2004-09-30T20:10:00.000+08:00

OMFG. CANDICE WENT OFF. FUCK. NOW LEFT ONLY 3 PEOPLE WHOM I THINK IS GOOD. MAIA, DAVID, AND CANDICE WHO IS OUT.

Ok.

Leandra sucks. Big fucking time. I hate her. Bad dance, bad voice, bad looks, bad everything lah.

Jerry weirdly sounded quite like a small kid voice. I think it was good, which is kinda shocking to me also. But whatever, it sounded a little plastic. (and oh yeah, he said THANK YOU DICK) (and he is ugly and balding)

Christofer (how the fuck do u spell it?) did some part ok, but most of it was shit. So just fuck it.

MAIA! Lol. Maia. Sounded flat? Don't know. Maybe this song is meant to be sung as a group. But ya MAIA ROCKS. Hehe =) And overral to me neutral, I think its bad. But aiya singapore standard lah so...

Taufik. Seriously I thought this guy was a piece of shit, but when he sung I was like WAH I know its good instantly. Wonder why the judges gave such shit comments, im convinced they are oxymoron fuckers who have funny tastes. So... who knows? I can change idols as long as the show goes on xP

Beverly. Dang that song just sounds plastic. The dance and stuff all suck. And if you notice she raise her chin quite high thoughout the whole thing, she probably has difficulty reaching the high notes. And she was shaking the microphone I dunno like what. But I think she look quite nice today except for the fucked dress and lipstick.

David I quite liked actually. But I think the performance was uber crap. Don't need to wait for the judges comments.

I don't like daphane's 1st performance. I think its was pretty shitty. But today I think she did quite well. Although I don't like this kind of songs (too fucking oldie sounding) but I think it sound like its style. She dressed like shit. Bad. Black leather jacket, black sockings (wtf?), black footwear, and girly face. I don't know the dressing is just shit.

Jeasse, I have nothing to say about her before and now. And I think that female judge is right (can't remember her name suddenly), she has no persona. Boring. *YawnZ*

I have no more mood to write the rest. Olinda just kinda sucked. That song reminds me of band. And band reminds me of everything else in my life, bad good suck cheesy whatever fuck it. And the last sylvester the fucker I don't even feel like listening or watching. He's just blows.

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Im in a bad mood today. My life just feel so fucked up. Don't have much I feel like saying after all those idol comments anyway. So I wrote a poem. Maybe when im free or feeling fucked up soon then I will write about it.

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So much to say
So hard to say

In a world of silence
Every word uttered is lost
I can't speak
My mind's a prison,
keeping everything inside
Can't let it out

Like a treasure chest
Locked and lost far away
Collecting dust
and getting more out of reach each day

Like a ship in deep sea
Braving sun and storm
An oyster shell fencing off predators
Stubbornly refusing to open
Hardly anybody can penetrate my thoughts

All the pain and joy kept within me
Cocktail of sorrows and happiness bottled up
Killing me silently
Taking away my senses
Drawing my emotions
Dousing my feelings

I feel numb without emphathy
Is this part of maturity?
Being in a empty void is worst than any pain
Like a bleeding painless wound

So much I want to say
So much I want to feel
So hard to say
=(

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This week's lyrics

Please just don't play with me
My paper heart will bleed
This wait for destiny won't do
Be with me please I beseech you
Simple things that make you run away
Catch you if I can

Oh yeah, I added a scoreboard. Too bored. And very nice song this is. Quite old.

Cleaned

2004-09-26T21:57:00.000+08:00

Had dinner. Mother blahed around a little before going off. Nobody is at home. All is quiet. I was eating that curry chicken rice for dinner when I discovered how quiet it was.

Finished my dinner. Took my clothes. Went to shower.

It was quite a shower. Turned on the water, shampooed my hair. Turned the water colder.. was thinking about so much things (as usual). Decided not to think. The water turned really cold.. a little too cold for my liking. But I left it there, washed my hair.. felt the cold water run through my head. Like it was a warm blanket stuffed with so much things.

Took a slow shower, and really enjoyed it. Came out, I washed my specs with soap.

Took some ice, and poured water. Drank all the iced water. Had 3 cups. Washed off the curry taste, and felt the coldness inside me.

I feel clean inside and out.

Played a "clean" song too, switched on my computer right after, and played Hui Dao Guo Qu - Jay Chou.

And came over to blog.

I will try and follow a time table, and try to keep a simple, uneventful lifestyle for a few (1-3) weeks.

Tomorrow this is what I want to do.

-Not sleep in class
-Go home right after (with Jun Wei probably), directly home without going anywhere else
-SHOWER BEFORE ANYTHING ELSE
-Play Computer until 6
-Buy dinner and eat
-Watch television or read a book till 8
-On music and study till 9
-Chat OR read a book OR television till 10:30 and try to sleep

Going off now, its 10:05. Going to get some more iced water and read a book and try to sleep by 10:30.

;)

Another popular song. If you guys can guess this, i'll post some really nice lyrics of songs which I like (usually not pop genre)

So clear
Like the diamond in your ring
Cut to mirror your intention
Oversized and overwhelmed

Good day to all, Cheers =)

Aunties And Uncles

2004-09-26T01:02:00.000+08:00

Ok, this generally refers to all the middle-old age people, roughly 35-50 year old aunties and uncles who still depend on themselves.

They are mostly rude, self-centered, poorly educated, badly dressed, ugly and wrinkled mother fuckers.

In case you are thinking of that nice old lady neighbour that you have, your father, or that old man at the Kopi-thiam, think again.

Nice people who gives you a smile every morning you see them, that's what you call your good neighbour. Your father who takes care of you with all his effort, that's your father. The man at the Kopi-thiam playing chess and giving you tips while you observe, that's a friendly fellow singaporean.

Aunties and uncles are, well if you want to say in the norm english form, it refers to the sisters of your parents, or the wife of your parent's brothers. In singlish terms, you can probably see that aunties and uncles are refered to strangers who gives you sweets and stuff.

Its partly right. (i'll just focuse on aunties 1st) Aunties are simply, well, fuckers. Rude people whom you don't know personally. That would be a good way to put it. Any other nice strangers, there are always better names for them (policemen, the joker, that merry musician who always whistles, etc.) Thus, if you meet a rude stranger, use the right singlish term.

Right, lets get on with my story. I'll blog about what really happened to me today. (which is rare i guess)

Woke up, brushed up, and sat at the com -.-
Played quite a bit and all.. afternoon came, so I bathed and changed, and prepared my stuff for my drum lesson. Went out, Andrew called me. Turn out he is going to be late (as usual), and so I took 2 buses to his house downstairs, after a little walk as well. He came down, and I bought an ice-cream (craving) and we took a cab to Plaza Sing. Had our drum lesson, screwed around quite a bit, was fun. Then we went to arcade, played quite a bit, and went for dinner. Here's where all the shit begins.

Found a sit, from some people whom I guess were too busy with thier little smoochy world, so we left them alone and bought our food. My queue was shorter, so I went to buy the drinks while Andrew brought his food. Here I saw this 40+ lady (wtf lady, I meant bitch) at the counter.

"Ice Milo and Ice Teh"
Seeing the signboard wrote EXACTLY that in the menu (they literally wrote Ice Milo, Ice Teh), and that is what I ordered, because I know Andrew likes Ice Teh and always drink that (cause impotency btw, but that's another matter)

That bitch made Ice Milo (wow she actually is that smart) and ICED TEA. Tea meaning those english tea? I told her I wanted TEH. TEH IS TEA WITH MILK. DUMBASS.

(translated) She told me "Wah Lou. Next time order say MILO PENG and TEH PENG. Don't give me all this complicated terms. Just say what we usually say. See lah now make wrong we have to throw away and waste."

So I told her in chinese "its written there on the signboard, besides you work here you would have received millions of orders you don't know a simple thing like that?"

And she tells me "Is you never say properly, not my fault, I can choose not to make the drink again for you."

And so, feeling pissed and such, I decided to calm down and not argue about such a petty thing.

After dinner, we went arcade again, and then we went home. I took MRT. While going out on the ticket counter thing, where we scan the card, this fucking auntie ACTUALLY CAME AND CUT THE QUEUE STRAIGHT AND DIRECT. And I was just standing there ready to scan it. What the fuck is her problem. Never mind, cool it, it all happened in like 5 seconds anyway, so forget about shouting.

Bus Stop, bus came. Stupid 123 is ALWAYS slow, thus many people were like rushing to board the bus. There was another auntie, she was like running to the bus too, and she TOUCHED MY BUTT ON THE WAY. I guess its sort of in her arm level, being short and stuff, but she PUSHED MY BUTT AND HURRIED HER DAMN WAY. I was so idiotically pissed off, I purposely faked to turn and my elbow smashed her face. She cursed in chinese. I stared at her. She just continued her way mumbling all the shit.

Then on the bus, crowded and stuff, this fat man came and sat beside me. Sure, I squeezed in, my pleasure, to give him space. And guess what happened? HE FARTED. Those.. soft medium volumn fart. I was unfortunate enough to be able to pick it, and smell it too. And it totally fucked me up. Darn fucking pissed with the whole shit. Just walked all the way home. And heard an indian at the coffee shop shouting KANINA too. Didn't know indians swear like that too.

Pissy shit, what a fucked day. Anyway, this is just ramblings. I'll probably do a proper update tomorrow. Peace people.

Nice song. Anybody know what it is? Kinda easy I guess.

Seven days and seven nights of thunder
The water's rising and I'm slipping under
I think I feel in love...

And I don't have the full mp3 version. Anybody who can send me would be nice =)

Friendship Alphabets

2004-09-22T17:56:00.000+08:00

Im totally bored, so today im going to do a seriously lame thing. Most of this are probably private jokes, so don't worry if you don't understand... and I try to keep it to guys only =)

Andrew <3 Timothy.
Band rocks! Ah well, except NHSB.
Christolfe thinks blogs are for sissies, and yet visits to spam.
DOTA causes late nights. =P
E = MC²
Fuck is part of friendship. When guys say fuck to each other, its either good or really bad.
Gan Jia Hao always enjoys a good poke in the butt.
HEAL ME!!! *(#@^$@#($(& (#*$ has fallen. Damn.
I've been in the same school with Jin Yuan since kindergarden, and yet I have no idea what he likes or don't like if you ask me, I just do manage to cater to them somehow ( go your house? ;) ).
Jit Hin absolutely hates people touching his sleeves (the good old days man haha).
Kan Wei is a fucker (haha dude, but besides the point of destress, there are REAL fuckers out there with K names, and no thankz don't dirty this space by saying it).
Love < Friendship
Maroon 5 pwnz. (so does maia, and all the load game time lyrics posting)
Nicholas is not vulgar.
Only One Auntie for me please (haha, I'm such a good nephew xP)
Play with books. That always happens in group studies.
Queue up in smokey (how the heck did we get the name anyway).
Reach for the ladder, climb the stars? *blur* Who remembers? ^^
Shin supports the movement towards Freedom of Vandalism.
Timothy <3 andrew =)
U Damn, I can't think of anymore to fit >.<
V is sacred. No pun intended xP (oh, and it is the shape your toes form when your feet cramps).
Wen Wei enjoys being treated sadistically.
XmgPvlBNfjE (yours faithfully, *INSERT-SALUTATION-HERE*)
Yuan Quan si +3h 1337 5up4 h4xZ0r clan (lol)
Zaewe hates Timothy.

God, after all this I think its really lame and unfunny. But whatever. Im seriously bored and in a bad mood (somewhat). If its bad I won't ever do this shit again.

Oh yeah, guess the song to this lyrics! I will put one everytime at the end of any entry, a song which I think really rocks =)

You've got your dumb friends
I know what they say
They tell you I'm difficult
But so are they

Anybody knows?

ps. If you understand, then whatever. I've decided to screw it. IT. ;)

p.p.s Omg what a short entry =)

Pfffffft?

2004-09-19T21:48:00.000+08:00

How the heck do you pronounce that? Its like the buzzing sound u do in band and is commonly used to spite people.

"How are you?" Pfffft.
"Hungry?" Pfffft.
"Are you ok?" Pfffft.
"Do you feel sick?" Pfffft.

From my intensive research of looking and studying at people (yeah now you know, I don't go look at chio bu, its for research purposes), I realise that this is kind of rude. Like our common responses such as...

"How are you?" Your business ah?
"Hungry?" What the fuck I on diet you ask me this kind of shit?
"Are you ok?" Do I fucking look ok to you?
"Do you feel sick?" Pfffft.

Oh yeah, I dreamt of this oxymoron statement last night. I can't remember what was it about, but I know it's been a long while since I had such an exciting dream, and when I have an exciting dream, usually I wake up earlier and feel a lot more refreshed. Maybe its the mind churning and cleaning out all the garbage *Shrugs*

When somebody tells you, "I am stupid". And you go and tell that guy, "Yeah you are stupid", the stupid person here is you.

Why?

If a person is stupid, then his mind is not complex enough to comprehend that he is stupid. Thus, to say, a stupid person WILL NEVER KNOW HE IS STUPID.

And when somebody tells you that he feels he is stupid, 99.99999999999% he is being sarcastic or is in confusion (0.00000000001% belongs to wen wei, when wen wei says he is stupid, its a fact) And when you agree with him (yeah you are stupid is an agreement statement), it just shows you are stupid not to detect his sarcasm or confusion.

Thus, never demoralise a person by agreeing with his self-confessed stupidity, because the stupid one is you.

POP!

Im in a frickin' Dilema. Can anybody help me out?
I'll simplify the situation, any thoughts would really help. Its been bothering me.

People who pass the test will get a lollipop. You passed, your good friend didn't. Both of you want the lollipop badly. You cannot give it to him. If you have these 2 choices (below), which will you choose and why?

A) Eat the lollipop. After all you deserve it, and being such good friends, your friend won't mind. Even if he wants it badly, what his wants are not directly related to what you want. So you eat the lollipop.

B) Return the lollipop to the teacher. Suffer the agony of having no lollipops with your good friend.

I'm sure most people will pick B right? But will that really happen in real life? Would you give up lets say... an multi-billion dollar house in a foreign country? A very beautiful woman/man that you love so as to be with your friend? Lets get practical.

And what if I reverse the situation?

Pick a person you hate the most in your life.
Now, there is a lollipop. Both you, and this person you hate, want the lollipop badly. But you cannot have it. The choice is not you can

A) Let this hated person have it, so at least somebody is happy (and remember, you hate him/her)

B) Not let him have it. Better we suffer together.

What is your choice?

Now look, if both your answers is the same letter, then you are a normal person. If both answers are different letters, you either do not know what hate is, do not know what a friend is, or you have extremely lousy imagination.

Tell me your views. Im stuck in a fucking paradox and I have like 1-2 weeks to solve it. Sigh.

By the way, to be off topic a little, I want to post this 4 chio bu.

Nanako Matsushima (13 Oct 1973, Age: 31)

Whee chio! Took a while to make an impression, I watched like 2-3 episodes of GTO (and mind you, I watched while casually flipping through channels, not specially "ITS SHOWING NOW QUICK QUICK" kind of watch) before I really find her so sweet looking. Haha.

Alyssa Chia / Jia JingWen (7 Oct 1974, Age:30)

Could not find a bigger photo, this is one of the nicest so I cut it out and now it looks small and crap. Anyway, if you have not realise, she is Zhao Min from that chinese show. Yeah. Pretty. Haha. Its just at some angle and the way she dressed... the demure sweet looking and yet a little fiery tempered kind of role just suits her, because it makes her look chio. Ha!

And yes, both of them are twice my age or more, so? ;)

Kristin Kreuk (30 Dec 1982, Age 22)

Truth to be told, she is a quite unpopular figure when I 1st saw her. I remember that fateful day, it was the start of smallville. SItting on my computer and feeling REALLY BORED, I decided to switch on the television. Guess what? Smallville just started. And that was Remy Zero's (somebody saaaaaaaveee... meeee....) song playing, and some really typical western kind of theme start. I was like god.... boring. And I saw all the characters roughly and I was like.. typical boring stuff. (Mary Kate and Ashley? Those kind of really english shows where you spend half the time figuring out thier customs) And then the show started and poof.... I saw her upclose. Those eyes were like "OH MY GOD". I think it was the 1st time I truly idolise somebody. Great feeling. From then on I (tried) never to miss a single episode of smallville... heck, I even got the videos. The show gets repeative and boring, but who cares.. I don't watch for the story really. Its just a plus. =) Kristin Kreuk rules!!!

Last but not least..

MAIA LEE!!!!

She's 21, 1 year younger than Kristin (who says I only like middle age woman? I like classy mature ladies ^^) Can't find her birthdate, and Singapore has really really REALLY CRAPPY PHOTOGRAPHERS. I mean I can't find a nice photo of her or any of the idols... or maybe just a few. But still, I think she is very pretty and sings well too. Haha! SINGAPOREAN BLOOD ONE LEH.

And I guess this summarises my entry. Maybe I'll do a chio bu entry sometime soon =P And yeah, here's a bonus why I don't like Sylvester. Why I think he is so act cute and all. Voice is one thing, personality is another. I'll enlarge the pic too.

Cute. Right. Look at that smile. So.... nice. Lol. If you are a sylvester fan, sorry to burst your bubble, tell me how cute he is after looking at this. (and yeah, i've said singaporean photographers suck)

GO MAIA!!! =)

Take care people, this is the examination period where I am extremely bored and everybody seems otherwise. Drink plenty of water and don't fall sick!

SGI Wildcard

2004-09-16T20:48:00.000+08:00

omg. I missed the 1st part of the show. So started halfway while ShiRin (5) was singing. So I shall start here.

5. I heard this the last bit. Was hella good! Really impressed me, and I love it alot. Too bad her dress make her look really fat and short. And the colour sucks. If you looked closely, her arms are kind of thick and her belly was bludging.

6. Benjamin! Oh my god. What can I say? This is the song I have been chanting on and on and he spoilt it. Gosh. I so wanted him to sing well... but I guess this can't be helped. He was really bad there.

7. Nelson. OMG. He's attitude really sucks. His singing is just bullshit. I don't like it a lot. Don't know about what you people think.

8. Sylvester. The person himself totally sucks. Act cute too much and stuff, i seriously can't stand him. But his singing today was like "WAH". Don't know what the song is, but it really sounded like Bon Jovi. Damn good.

9. MAIA ROCKS. GOGOGO. Lol I seriously hate this song. But yeah gogogo! Didn think it was too good.. but jia you anyway. Hehe =) Hey hey honestly it didn't sound too good. But she said got throat thingy.. so... GO! HAHA.

From what i've seen, I think Shirin and Sylvester are going pretty strong.. but i hope Maia Wins. =) Looking at the slight review I think out of the 1st four the guy who sung This I promise you - N'sync was pretty good. Not sure if its this song.. but I think so. Pretty good too. Haha. Go all! =)

OMG. Maia is like, short??? But no big deal yeah. That guy is Haizad. And the people in the back seem to have all the banners. I think they rotate and support all the contestants -.O

ps. Maia got choosen by the judges. Sylvester got voted. And Beverly was specially requested in. Doh.

Breverages

2004-09-14T21:16:00.000+08:00

Hey all! Today im in a good mood, so I shall be talking about some lighter stuff today.

Had both oral exams, and I think they went pretty well. =)

As you probably don't know, I work part time in a shop during some weekends. My job is to deliver food, and clean tables and stuff like that, in whatever I can help in. Basically, do odd jobs. Im going to take this chance to introduce some terms of breverages. Not too sure if the majority of you know this, but im bored and have too much time, enough to type all this anyway. =)

Oh, and below it will be the homework (yes, 1st friggin' homework since the time so long ago that I have forgotten) that I have done for english. For the teacher I mention the other time I want to do homework for so long but was too lazy to? =P

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Remember please, im not some expert, so it might not be all so accurate. Also, my chiense is best, so the dialectyu pinyin (its a hybrid word from hanyu pinyin) might not sound like the real thing idea. Im also too lazy to do pictures, typed real lot of stuff today, so make do without illustrations.

Local coffeeshop coffee and tea are mainly make of 5 ingredients.
-Based product (coffee powder/tea leaves etc.)
-Condensed milk (the thick thick muscus-like milk. its gooeyish)
-Evaporated milk (its thin and like fresh milk)
-Sugar (what the heck is this?)
-Hot Water (i have no idea what temperature range are like either)

Here are some examples:

-Local
Kopi, Ka Fei, Coffee
This is local coffee of the most basic kind. Coffee powder, hot water, stir, add sugar, and both milk. Usually you see a brown coffee with a layer of white at the bottom.

Kopi - O, Ka Fei Wu, Black Coffee
This is the same, except it doesn contain any milk. Looks black with sugar at the bottom.

Kopi Ka Dai
This is coffee, with more sugar.

Kopi Siew Dai
Coffee with less sugar -.-

Kopi C
This is coffee without condensed milk. The C does not stands for CONDENSE milk, it stands for CARNATION MILK, which is a brand of CONDENSE MILK. Do not get confused. Here, I was so free that I will casually add a photo here.
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Teh
Stands for tea. All those modification for coffee applies here. (teh C, etc.)

Diao He (fishing in hokien)
This is also tea, but its those in a tea bag. The name is gotten because it looks like fishing. ( yawnz, suddenly I think this entry might be boring =( )

Tak Kiew (kicking ball in hokkien, or translated as socceer)
This stands for milo. Ever seen those soccer milo ads? Don't ask me why those uncles in kopitiams are so creative.

-Now, for a little on Foreign Traditional Breverages that I know a little of.
Espresso
This is coffee made from steamed coffee beans. I think they are steamed in high pressure. Don't know how different it taste, personally I think it just taste like normal good old Kopi.

Latte
My parents are in waiting industry when they were younger (that's how they met, but that's another story). I do know a little about stuff like that, but they are from memory. If I am not wrong, latte are the most bitter kind of coffee. Rich and bitter, good if you are pissed off. I don't think its possible to glup it down, its very VERY strong stuff.

Mocha
Coffee which is bitter but also sweet. I think mocha coffees usually have a bit of chocolates in them, but I think there are also variations without chocolates. Basically, they should be coffee that taste sweet. Can be strong too. Meaning being extremely bitter and sweet.

In malaysia, the locals have this common term call MaMak. I seriously don't know what it means in malay, but I know this term is used for relaxation, and catching on old times. Like finding a good spot, ordering drinks, sitting down and chatting for hours. That's call MaMak. And I want to introduce this extremely pleasant drink called Nesto Ice. This is coffee with milo, chilled (Warning to man, coffee iced can cause lower sperm count) I can't discribe how it taste, but I think it will not be hard to imagine. I do not know what kind of balance it is though, so try only if you can afford to have stomach ache for the rest of the day.

That's about it for today, think i'll blog more on the weekend. Stay happy! =)

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My Achievements

Achievements are different for everyone. To me, an achievement is something I aspired and worked for, not something good I received in recgonition for my efforts. Its just like, if I happened to witness a robbery and helped somebody by retrieving his or her belongings back, and get an award for it, I would not consider it much of an achievement, rather as a symbol of reminder for the good I have done.

If something as simple as going to school early for the whole year, and I do make an effort and constantly remind myself not to be late, and succeed, that to me is an achivement.

Having a loose mouth, being full of opinions, I got into a lot of trouble on my path of growing up. Remembering the time I get slapped by a man in coffee shop because I told him not to smoke in front of me (because it was extremely smelly), it just shows that nobody would give much of a thought to what a little boy, alone buying dinner for himself, and saying things that they don't want to hear. Nor did anybody bother to speak for me, when im on the side of courtesy and good health. How many people would not know of the ill effects of smoking in our educated society? Not even one person knows? Even if I was wrong, it does not mean that man had a right to slap me anyway, because that itself is a wrong action.

Im sure in public places like on MRT(Mass Rapid Transit) trains, you would have seen things like that happen. Just like what I did for chinese oral today, about the right of seats. Are we absolutely entitled to give up our seats to people who need it more than us? Such as, senior citizens and pregnant women? Truth to be told, i've seen a lot of rude old people who take things for granted. Imagine a senario where the train is packed, a teenager is "sleeping" with headphones over his ears, oblivious to what is happening around him, and an old womawn standing in the middle, clutching tightly onto the pole.

Nobody says anything, and this probably happens a lot. Who's at fault? Did any of the people bother to tell the boy to give up his seat to the old lady? Or did the boy pretend not to know anything? If so, why did he do that? Is he lazy? Perhaps the boy had a hard tiring day in school, physically drained, and maybe the old lady has been sleeping the whole day at home, and is fit enough to stand for an hour without the need to sit down? There is no one at fault in the situation, in fact if there is anybody at fault it would be all the people around, be it sitting down or standing up. Next time you see this situation, why not ask the boy to give up his seat and solve it once and for all instead of keeping it all inside and thinking what a un-cultured boy that teenager is?

I always had a lot of opinions, and I never got the chance to speak up properly when I was young. In fact, the way I was brought up and due to the society, I was in fact trained the other way round; to watch my tongue. As I got older and matured my mind has always been the same and I always have the same opinions, but this time I dared to speak up and state my point. If the situation of the man slapping me again reoccur he would probably be arrested and jailed. Nobody tells me what to do when I am doing something right and have no intention of causing trouble.

By the time primary school came, freedom of speech is something I strongly believed I am entitled to. Maybe it is due to my peers, but a few of my friends were also always having opinions about things, and sometimes a clash of opinions caused rifts between friendships, but we all learn to overcome them and grow mentally. This slowly influnced my circle of friends, not to a great effect, but people were not as afraid to speak up in class and "oppose" the teacher if they had contradicting opinions to certain issues.

Comes to the age of my primary 6 english teacher, whom had superb english, and had a unique style of teaching. She was strict, and if looked from a third party's view, a normal reaction would have been disapproval to her method of teaching. Yet, she bore results. Over the years she has built a reputation for herself, and people praised her for being an absolutely wonderful teacher. And her style she kept, for many years.

This event has given me a "its alright to be different" mindset, and by the time I come into secondary school, I was never afraid to speak up when its appropriate, even if to point out the mistakes of others. Sometimes criticisms are taken negatively, and I look "downgraded" as a result, but it does not matter, because I know if criticisms I gave are taken positively, they will be beneficial, if not, the only loser is that person, and not me.

Freedom of speech is something I taught myself, and I am seldom deterred by the unpopularity of an option or a socially "unaccepted" behavior or thing to say. I share this with people in the way I do things, and although it is not always received and used the right way, I am happy that I contributed at least in a small way to the liberation of opinions being voiced out. It might seem somewhat insignificant, yet this is something I pride myself for.

This is what I feel is, my greatest achievement.

14 Sep 2004
-Timothy Chan

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Tribute To The Dead - Sep 11

2004-09-11T01:20:00.000+08:00

Today is September 11th, and we all probably remember the famous terrorist attack on this day 3 years ago.

Im not going to write all the facts and all, just want to say a few words about it. Being a christian and all, and feeling a need to. This is not intended to be funny, offensive or creative in anyway, and kindly do not spam my comments. It would be really nice to hear what you have to say about this, but honestly do not spam. Anything that I see and I don't like, I'll make an exception this post by deleting them. Flaming and spam is STRICTLY forbidden.

Everybody has to die. We probably have our different views on it, but the best one I can accept is that, everyone will die in the end anyway. So death is unavoidable. And the way we have our death, is important.

What's the point of the attack? To prove to the world that USA suck? or that terrorist are superior? But im sorry, so far all it has done is to make people hate terrorism more, increase security on it, and causing sadness. Not only life is made difficult for the good people, security made it harder for terrorist to do thier stuff too. The point? In the end, everybody suffers. Sigh.

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For the people who died in this incident, and all others who have died in terrorist attacks, whether you have done good and contributed to society, or have been a menace, you have all sacrificed your innocent lifes to the wrong doings of these rejects of the society. Forgive them for they do not know what they are doing, lead them from the bad ways as outcasts to the path of goodness. Guide them to see as we do. Give strength to us children of God to continuing working towards world peace, and help us fight any obstacles we may face in the way.

I pray to you Father, to bless the families of these victims, and to soothe thier broken hearts. I pray that you will welcome these souls with open arms, and may they walk hand in hand together with you in all of Heaven's Glory.

Rest In Peace

Amen

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p.s Im not good with prayers, particularly because I don't pray much unless im needed to or want to, and 50% of them are due to customs than free will. This is all sincere though, and laugh all you want, offer your tributes, but please do not flame my comments board. Thank you.

Toys - "WAN JU LEH"

2004-09-08T17:43:00.000+08:00

1st, I have something to flame about. Keeping it as short as possible, but knowing me, it might end up long (its on band). So if you wanna skip flame, move down to the Toys section. Gogogo =)

Today I borrowed an Euphonium home. I am a trombone player, so by right I am not entitled to it. Not only that, we all know how much I hate NHSB and all and how I might derive sadistic pleasure out of the instrument.

Now, in normal Band rules, we're not allowed to do that. But lets face it, how many more serious rules have we broken?

There are 3 four-valved euphoniums. And 3 euphonium players. So each of them use one. There are also a lot of extra three-valved euphoniums. I borrowed one of the four-valved euphoniums. With permission from its user, a sec 1 girl. So she would have to use a three-valved.

The difference between a three and four valved euphonium is more of skill level and habbit. It can be said a four valve sounds nicer and is harder to play, but there are not much difference really. A four valve can be played like a three valve and sound exactly the same.

So what's the deal? The sec one girl can't even play basic stuff, so she didn really care I guess.

Turn of events, I asked Zaewe to go band yesterday, this is the exact UNMODIFIED LOG.
[11:00:24 PM] (w)3o2//`22|: hEY
[11:00:27 PM] (w)3o2//`22|: tOdAE u GOiNG bo
[11:00:30 PM] (w)3o2//`22|: TML*
[11:02:12 PM] [ -z.A.e.W.e: not going band
[11:02:16 PM] (w)3o2//`22|: y
[11:02:18 PM] (w)3o2//`22|: go LEy
[11:02:18 PM] (w)3o2//`22|: tml
[11:02:20 PM] [ -z.A.e.W.e: sian
[11:02:21 PM] (w)3o2//`22|: hELP me buRrOW EUpHo
[11:02:24 PM] (w)3o2//`22|: A whIlE lAH
[11:02:26 PM] (w)3o2//`22|: dEN leAvE eARly
[11:02:30 PM] [ -z.A.e.W.e: no
[11:02:36 PM] [ -z.A.e.W.e: its either i go or dun go
[11:02:43 PM] [ -z.A.e.W.e: no go early or anything
[11:02:44 PM] (w)3o2//`22|: fUCk lOH
[11:02:50 PM] (w)3o2//`22|: tOMorROW aFter bANd wE going to eaT as A
gup lEh
[11:02:52 PM] (w)3o2//`22|: gROUP*
[11:02:53 PM] (w)3o2//`22|: uS boYS
[11:02:56 PM] (w)3o2//`22|: holidAYs
[11:02:56 PM] [ -z.A.e.W.e: nah
[11:03:00 PM] [ -z.A.e.W.e: exclude me
[11:03:01 PM] (w)3o2//`22|: wITHouT ALl the faggiTz
[11:03:03 PM] (w)3o2//`22|: ....
[11:03:06 PM] (w)3o2//`22|: nVm dEN..
[11:03:21 PM] [ -z.A.e.W.e: i go sleep liao
[11:03:22 PM] [ -z.A.e.W.e: bye

Now today, he asked me if I borrowed the instrument. He insisted that I must return it, regardless of what the juniors think, and what thier skill level is. Basically, I must fucking (here it comes) return the instrument.

Since when he became such a rule nut? This is the band rule the gods set it so we can't break it. Juniors don't know how to play? He says THAT"S WHY IM GOING TO TEACH THEM.

Now, we all fucking saw that you have this problem with sheryl, and your juniors. We all know how you feel and shit, so you never did talk to them, and we understand that. YOUR TELLING ME YOU GOING TO TEACH THEM? WHAT FUCKING RUBBISH. YOU EVEN GOING FOR BAND? SUDDENLY YOU ARE SUCH A ENTHU NUT? ARE YOU KIDDING?

For fuck's sake, its not as if im going to kill the euphonium, or the junior is going to deprove because she is using a 3 valve instrument. SHE CAN"T EVEN PLAY. Who the fuck has been teaching them all this while WHILST YOU WERE BUSY? Maybe lan and shit, yeah more important. Who the fuck has been teaching your juniors how to play and scrape through all this shit? Much as I hate the band, I ALWAYS interact with the juniors and shit. I like going around and helping. Ask anybody, even those mother fuckers from committee. If I wasn't close to them I wouldn't even bother getting the permission 1st. And you are telling me that im selfish and I do not fucking care about the juniors? YOU, JUDGING ME FROM WHAT YOU HAVE DONE? All I can say is WHAT THE FUCK.

And all in all, your nick say return the instrument, return the 6 bucks, and you going to ignore me. Read it again and see how childish it sounds. And then ask yourself, is the 6 bucks and instrument more important or our friendship? Its seems like its the material once. Nice stuff. You degrade yourself.

Screw, its always a loop sided argument. You want the frickin' euphonium back? Sure, take it. We all love this band. Lets uphold the righteous ways and keep the law and order in the band (fucking sarcasm). You think i give a damn so much about keeping the euphonium? Seriously, if that's what you think of our friendship, 1+ year going back together, enjoying band then, hanging around during breaks and shit, and now the trust is broken just because of a fucking rule? If that is just what it means to you, then I have nothing to say. Not that im trying to act noble or what, but if you care so much about the damn hellhole, then go enjoy your band practices fag.

p.s. Btw, we're going to start getting detention if we skip band practices without reason. Im curious to see the 1st day of this rule taking effect, and how effective it is =)

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Now for the entry, TOYS!!
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Now, we all played with toys sometime or another in our lifes (don't deny it). The Timie Doll inspired me to do more toys. So here it goes, how different our world would be if I designed toys. (no offence to names used, if you really feel fucked about it email me I will take your name off)

1st, the Timie Doll.

Of course, this kind of dolls are meant to be for girls, but my design is specially made for boys. Boys can now do roleplay with all the cooking, bathing, whatever, change clothes, drive cars, whatever, and whatever. Oh, and it is made not with all hard plastic, but with hard silicon. Kind of like jelly stuff. And has an extra large chest so as to prevent people from swallowing it. Kind of suited for people like Jia Hao and Han Bin. =)

2nd, The "Car Car"

Remember all the "EEE THIS IS CHILDISH" stuff? Now the car has a punk look, and the cigarette really burns. Just light it up, and play with your smoking car. Looks cool, and smells good too. Teaches carbon dioxide and stuff. Definitely fun, and educational. Best for people who like adventures, and RPGS, like Jun Wei and Jin Yuan. (im anti-smoking by the way)

3rd, The Bite Toy

This is probably the most satisfying product ever. Garunteed pleasurable to people who have an active mouth. Good for people like Wen Wei who barks and bites. (haha me too xP)

4th, The Voodoo Doll

This toy is also another good stress relief tool. Comes with a sword for poking at. Don't let your kids get hold of it, it might give them nightmares. Also, its easily breakable. Don't get too rough with it. Don't know who will want this toy though. Hmmm.

5th, The Squeezer

Now, how can we all forget the famous fore-fathers or all plastic toys, such as the unsinkable rubber duckie and squeezable soft toys that "Squeaks" when you squeeze them? Now, comes modded, we present you a cleaner looking, nicer sounding (really high pitched) squeeze toy! And it comes with a cute button too! Recomended for kids aged 3 and above.

Last but not least, The best toy ever.

This is great! Has lots of words, has a fucking ugly picture, and is fucking cheap. Fit for people to pass time and play with. People like Kakeru and *insert fucker's name here*.

And here, I conclude my chapter on toys. Hey who knows, I might be talent scouted and one day be a top designer in Toys 'R' Us. Haha.

p.s. This post is not intended to insult anybody (oh except Kakeru). If you are offended, tell me and I will remove your name. Sick of me doing "sickening" stuff like that? Don't come and read my posts anymore thank you. I'm a sad man trying to kid myself and playing with photoshop.

p.p.s I will start linking people back. Template got screwed up. Sorry =( Still fixing broken links and stuff.

p.p.p.s Will update again soon, probably tomorrow. A short one on SGI today I guess. If maia doesn't get in then fuck this show im not watching anymore. =) GO MAIA!

p.p.p.p.s Oh my god! This post ended just nice at 10. Lets watch who qualifies =)

Friendship (ding?)

2004-09-03T21:24:00.000+08:00

P.P.S FUCK LAH. FUCKING SERVER LOST MY TEMPLATE. KNN. HAVE TO REDO.

Yo. Shall get straight into the point today. =)

Human relationship is a complicated thing. What is a friend? To me, friend is somebody whom you know and have no negative feelings to, rather, have positive feelings with. So basically people whom you have negative or neutral attitude towards, they are not considered friends.

Friends, naturally we praise and encourage each other.
"Enemies", people we have negative feelings against, either a bad sort of hatred, or just disliking a trait of the person (he talks too much, disgusts me), this are people we naturally will insult. Insult, meaning FLAME.

Everybody is a human being with EQUAL worth, be it an ugly, or fat, or short, or black, or whatever you wanna discriminate people for (smell? big nose? nerd hair? just to name a few). Its unfair to flame people ini a negative way for their "bad" traits. What the hell is bad? I've always said that BAD and GOOD are terms use to measure the degree of certain things, not negative or positive attributes. To put it more simple, you say "this food taste good, this shoe looks bad" you don't say "he is a bad guy, she is a good teacher (*pukes why did I use this example)"

So lets put it the other way round. Lets say tall and thin people are now considered as negative, and fat and short are considered positive (not meaning anything when I say all this), is it fair to say the tall and thin people are "the thrash of the society?" What the hell. Flaming people for no damn reason just shows your immaturity. Sorry to all my friends if this refers to you. Must as I respect your willingness to point out your views, things that have obviously no good effects should be kept inside. Such acts of childishness. So what, do you feel good now? Funny? Come on man, there are funnier things. These really disappoint me. How cheap a thrill.

And if you are affected by all this, you should really slap yourself twice, bang your head against the wall trice and bite your toe hard and wake up. I don't know how to explain this, its not about being strong, its about making sense. I'll quote an example. Somebody comments that Timothy is a fag. What am I going to do? "WAAAA THIS PERSON SAID I WAS A FAG SOB SOB MY SPIRIT IS BROKEN". Or would you prefer a (sarcasm intended) "oooh, im a fag. That is just so going to make me sad and cry. Boo. Get a life man. So you said im a fag, laughed about it, and thats it? haha, that was funny, haha, ha, ha."

By the way, I might as well cover about insults more. When you insult somebody, please make sure there is negative feelings about it. Im going to quote a real life example of myself. Who does not know the infamous (ho and behold, your nose that is) Kenneth Chang the Smelly, Agar Agar(like Lim Ai Tee says, aaaaaaa.... GHAR) of Nan Hua. This little punk sat beside me for a torturous year of my sec 2/1 life. Screw it. Being the inquisitive, pokey guy I am, I tried to talk to him. He speaks like a boor, which is ok since I expected him not used to being approached, but I soon discover that it is part of his character.

Me: Hey dude. You understand that or not?
Him: YA.
Me: Sure?
Him: YA.
Me: Err.. ok. Sianz. Later going to play soccer?
Him: YA.
Me: Oh.. you bring ball ah?
Him: NO.
Me: Eh? Then how to play?
Him: SCHOOL BALL

As I said, he speaks like a boor (what the heck is a boor anyway, I just discovered i invented it), and best part, to repay me for all my shit, he stole my "I AM DAVID". Seriously, how expensive is that book? What a fucker, are you like, afraid to buy things? Don't worry, you might even get things free. Like.. holding out the item and the money? The cashier won't dare to touch both things after? So you stand to gain. Fuckers like you are not flamed simply because you are smelly, simply because you are a *insert negative comments here*

Now, back to the topic. Friends... are assets. They are very important to our lifes. Imagine a life without friends... only your spouse? That's just crazy. Life has really no meaning that way. Im sure everybody have lots of friends, be it 5 billion, 10 million, 8 thousand, 2 hundred, or 10. All of them contribute bit by bit to our welfare. And every of them matters. Losing 1 friend might seem like no big deal, but let me tell you it has a long term effect. You might have missed out a lot by losing a friend. Its always better to make a friend than an enemy. Its true =)

Treasure your friends. They are not to be taken for granted. Every single one of them =)

They definitely aren't toys

Think now. 10 years down the road, who do you picture you will still know that is from now? Be sure that will happen and that person WILL be there with you 10 years down. If you don't have one, it does not matter. This does not mean you don't have a friend, this means you have to learn to appreciate your friends. Talk so much, please do get some of this in. Don't become another family person and only stick with the limited circle of relatives. Look forward in life =)

p.s. You don't gain friends after sucking up and stuff. After you get a post, you discover some uncalculated situation, and you try to make friends now with people? Fucking rubbish. If you are reading this KAKERU, I just want to tell you what a loser you are. Gaining respect because of your post. Lol. Stick with your percussion and pretend everybody loves you dude. Angry? Going to cry to Mdm Noridah or somebody? Go ahead, seriously I thin that's the only way you can achieve something yourself and get back at me. After all, all kids run to thier mothers after thier lollipops get stolen because they can't do shit about it.

SGI: >.<

2004-09-02T20:07:00.000+08:00

LOL. Watching it now, so this is "live" commentary. Hey i was going to rattle on about friendship and some bad issues, but ok, shall give a short fast entry today before ranting tomorrow. Hur Hur. Singlish today... lalala

1st. Some Dong person. CHIO! Sing not bad also... buhden the attitude is just screwed. Omfg. She act star too much man. Act chio and all. Omfg. Can't stand that shit. DIE!!!

2nd. Nelson Tan. This guy look like a guy I used to know called Kenny Chew. He has line eyes (literally -.-) He also reminds me of Sheng Qiang. Some gay from my class. Who is called Nelson too. Best part? He has a ear ring at his left ear that make him look UBER GAY. I can't remember if its left or right, but i remember i read before if a guy wears a ring ear ring (on left ear i think) it is to show other gays that he is gay. Its sorta a thing all gays will know.

3rd. Serena. Just finished. She looks pretty ok i guess.. she sang the start SUPER SUPRE nice. But the chorus was OMG but its ok.. soso not good but acceptable. And the most turn off is her dance. Fucked up. GG no RE.

4th. Sylvester Sim. Some guy who sings in chinese and learn in english. Sings the whole song pretty ok i guess. Tried to act cute.. which is fucked up, but overral compared to the first 3 he is not so act cute. Ok i just saw him do that smile shit again GG NO RE FUCK OFF.

5th. OMFG. THIS IS NONONO!!! Look fat, talk too much for her own good at the start. The dress totally sucks (i have nothing against fat, but please know limits bahzuz) She sing the song and i knew it was gone. The voice totally SUCKS. THE VOICE JUST SUCKS. OMG. THE. VOICE. JUST. SUCKED.

6th. Cool Voice. I think the song is just wrong. And he dance a little funny. But i think not bad bah.. just too quiet and all. Hope he gets in and do better. GOGOGO. But fuck, that mess just doesn look too good. Good luck to u man. U need it BAD. Shut up and stop talking already. NEXXXT.

7th. Oh Fuck. i was watching the chinese show that i missed this out. What chinese show? Some cheap shit where they giving out prizes like rice cookers and televisions? And if the contastants dun win the hosts get stuff from them? What a fucking cheap show. Plus i saw that guy got this mystery prize? Its is a letter opener and a keychain. Fucking shit. And then one guy got this "rare" prize, he get to steal one of the contestants prize. Meaning he get to get a good item from others if they win. Meaning media corp don't have to give out so many good prize! How fucking cheap. Crap. Oh, this guy looks pretty good too. Baby voice. Nice. lol. But dunno how did he perform lah.

8th. WOOOT. Nice voice. Pretty steady compared to the rest. Breathes a little too hard but... ROOOTING FOR CANDICE FOO!!! GOGOGO. haven even perform finished im impressed. Haha. Looks a bit fat from side view tho, but who cares, nice voice!!! WOOOOOT. GOGOGO.
-WTF. THAT STUPID NUMBER 3 ATTRACT ATTENTION "ooo her song touched me *sobs sobs*" Screw you. fuck off damnit.

9th. OMFG. Watched the chinese show. Nearly puked. Lucky it disgust me so much i turn back and just nice its next one. Btw, he said sin-SIOR-rity. Wtf how many times i heard that liao. knn sound so bloody low class. Like some uneducated man. Speak with more gusto damnit. And the song is screwed. NO need finish *flips back to the chinese show*
GURMIT! WHAT KIND OF OUTFIT IS THAT? But cool words, you rock =) Although he is some old man liddat, i think he speaks with brains. Kudos dude. Gurmit rocks.

10th. Ok you look ugly and speak like shit. Lets see how you do. Hmm.. sound pitchy and stuff, but just flat sound. Like monotonous.. but in my opinion still can bah. Haha. gogog. Jia you =) Not good like the judge said, but i think ok.

Dicky juz have the cock eyed dick face as usual, the zha bor judge made better comments today i guess, that O guy always make cool, lively and obvious stupid comments. "You sing well." "You sing bad." "You dance well." Omfg, cool guy just wasting time. But KEN CHU TOTALLY SUCKS. Dude you aren't even like simon cowell. You talked too much shit and like some lecturer? Screw it i have enuff of fucking teachers already. Eat some shit. (lazy to post shit picture)

Show haven end, but im rooting for 8, 10 and 3. Only 8 is good imho. Good luck peeps.

p.s. Promise to update more tomorrow, prolly have a lot to say. Lol.

The Art Of Kao Beism

2004-08-29T22:51:00.000+08:00

To start off, just to tell you guys my template is done. LOL. Im too lazy to put all the colours and all, and the more I look, the more I think simple is nice.

Will be linking, put in comments or tell me directly if there is any bugs, hard to see things, any ideas, and also if you want to link =)

Back to today. TODAY WAS CRAP. Totally. Went there, hot as well.. blah blah. At least I manage to stick out with one group and survived. Phew. Boring, piss-offy, and hot. Bad day. Best part is, that Lee Hsien Long didn even give us a second look. Ok.. you are a PM and all. So you have the right to just walk pass like that. Without waiting us to finish. Guess what? Makes u like one of those "important" characters who claim to be democratical, equality and shit but didn't even gave a fucking look at us. Screw it.

Anyway, the main thing today is to show one of the things I did. Nothing much today, kind of a short update. This is one of my friend's brother (sec 2) who is writing a letter to the teacher. The main intention is to scold the teacher without getting into trouble. Here's the original copy, then my copy. Enjoy =) (don't bother reading unless you have too much time, its all about scolding and playing with words)

Original Copy
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Firstly, I am going to start with what we have done wrong. But before that, I would like you to forgive me if you were to think that my tone is a bit too harsh. My reason for this is because I see no reason in being patient with someone who is not patient with class 2D.
Yes. I agree to your point that we should not speak singlish, or even Chinese in class. However, I strongly believe that everyone in this world should be given a fair change to adapt to the surroundings. We are typical Singaporeans. Moreover what makes a Singaporean a Singaporean is because we speak singlish which no other countries do. Of course at this point of time you would say that you yourself speak singlish too, but not in class. My answer to this is because you are a teacher. You have gone through courses and you are trained to control yourself. Moreover, shouldn’t you give us a fair chance or even give us some time to adapt to YOUR REQUIREMENTS?
I can tell you honestly (honesty is the best policy). The class think that you are making a big fuss over small things. For example: when you asked for my ezlink card, I just joked with you that I did not bring and took it out IMMEDIATELY for you. However, you said that I was cheating you and wanted me to write 2000 lines for you. If I did not complain to Ms Cheang about this, I would have spent a long duration writing all this rubbish for you. Please. Can you just spare a little thought for us? We have better things to do. Moreover, you are just being far too serious. You could not even accept a simple joke.
Let us talk about the debate session. In every debate, there is a losing team and a winning team. You said that you set penalties because you would like all of us to try our best in this. However, the winner is set by you. How can you assure us that you are not being bias throughout? You give all of us, even the girls a sense that you are being real bias. You treat the girls better than the boys. Moreover, why must you punish us? If we really put our effort into it, why do you still need to punish us?
You like to make us pay class funds when we did something wrong. However, the economy is down right now. All our parents are struggling to be able to earn every cent. However you are right here to fine us. You may now ask then why do I actually choose to pay the class fund. My answer to you is that I think that I would rather spend a little money than to do some “rubbish” for you.
Let us talk about the issue of Jia Jun. When you asked Jia Jun if he were to allow you to take back his words, he said no. however, due to this issue, you said that he is actually defying your order. May I ask? What is the use of asking him his opinions if you had actually wanted to answer a yes? Moreover, in PM Lee’s speech during the national rally, he said that he would like all young Singaporeans to voice their views and not keep it to themselves. So, what is wrong with Jia Jun voicing out his views. From this, does that mean that you are actually defying PM Lee?
These are all I have to say. Although there might be more, I think that this is enough. I hope you can reflect upon yourself and think about all that I have said. Of course, I or even the whole class would try our very best to stop ourselves from speaking singlish in YOUR CLASS. PLEASE. WE NEED TIME TO ADAPT!
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My Version
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To start off, I would like to say that I have such a low opinion on you. This letter is meant to be open, constructive, and subjectively a wake-up call. Its not going to be a pleasant thing to read, and if you think that a punishment would be appropriate for me speaking out my mind, then so be it.

Lets start with the matter of speaking "singlish", chinese or any other form of language for that matter. What exactly is "singlish"? Im sure your knowledge brings you far enough to know that "singlish" refers to a hybrid kind of english, that is created through the accumulation of wrong pronunciation, common sounds suchs as grunting and hissing, and we can safetly say that "singlish" is also "dirty english". In other words, if singlish and all other forms of languages are not allowed, this means only pure english is allowed. Of course, that is what you said from the start issin't it? Are you trying to tell me since the day you came to be our teacher you have speaked perfect english without ANY gramatical errors and such? Perfect english meaning every single detail is taken note of. If you vouch that you are that good, challenge me. Bring a teacher in someday and teach normally speaking perfect english all the time. We're all humans, we make mistakes. Sometimes we might slip between words, but that doesn't mean we're trying to spite you or whatever. But that doesn't mean anything to you. Because every little bit of error discovered by your somewhat super sensitive ears we get punished. So? Your paranoid behaviour and your impatience with us just disappoints me. What I thought a teacher would be, caring, understanding, patient, and GUIDE THE STUDENT WHEN HE/SHE MAKES A MISTAKE OR IS NOT INTERESTED TO IMPROVE. How encouraging is punishing us? Do you honestly think that is going to make us speak better english next time? Or maybe its the way you think. Perhaps you come from a good family who speak perfect english all the time. That kind of pressure probably made you into such a control freak.

I think you are taking things too seriously. Remember the day where you asked me to write 2000 lines for you? Because I "cheated" you by saying I did not bring it? How stupid is saying that you didn't bring something and then taking it out? I don't know how you think, perhaps you just think that's logic. I just think its sad you enjoy making us write lines like that. What are you trying to prove? That you are all "powerful"? Or that writing lines is effective corporal punishment? So... next time you meet a lazy student who doesn't do his homework, make him write 1 million lines "I will be hardworking" and watch him change. Your ways of punishment are much to be ridiculed. Everything in life is like a perfect story book to you. You live in a fantasy world where nothing bad exist, because every bad thing is immediately acted upon and repelled out.

How about the debate session? We're punished because we lost. When we do badly, it means we did not put in enough effort in preparation for it. Remember the fact we're only sec 2, and our english are not ever-so-powerful like the godly you. Your english amazes us, your standard is incomparable to us. So, in anycase, we just suck. Too bad for us. Your right always.

Why make us pay class funds for our mistakes? By losing a few dollars, that's going to make us think twice about our mistakes? Like I said before, your methods of corporal punishment are simply weird. How many people you think are really bothered by those few dollars? Out of obvious spite for you, surely tolerating the hunger is better than tolerating you talking. Besides, if the poorer students were to starve, and should anything happen to them, I think you better have an explaination for it. Not trying to threaten you, but after all the law and the students have a lot of powers this days. Why did this student contract this illness? How did he not have enough body immunities and nutrients? How did he not have enough food? How did he not have enough money to buy the food for such a long periods of time? How come he never had enough money to buy food during recess? Not just once, but frequently. Did his parents not give him money? No, its because you make us pay the class funds. Wow. So what are you going to tell the authorities if something that drastic ever happens? "He deserves to die because he always talks in class and never learns." Or perhaps you already have an answer to that, since your all perfect.

(didn understand the next part, so I assumed the meaning)
Remember that day with Jia Jun? We're stupid kids these days. When you say "Are you going to change?", your most probably getting a "NO". Why? Because we're stupid. Its not your fault really. We're stupid that when you asked such an intelligent question which requires a definite answer we always get it wrong. Nice going. What is the meaning of the word "QUESTION"? How about considering auditioning for media corp or maybe Singapore idol. Everything is rehearsed. Nothing will go wrong. You will be happy there.

Think about it. I wrote all this because I think you are an adult and probably sensible enough to understand what I am saying. Don't prove me wrong.
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AHHHH. Today the suddenly find cool word is Geneva. Haha. Pistachio ---> Geneva. GENEVA!!!!!

In case you do not know what Geneva means.

What's mannerism?

2004-08-27T23:55:00.000+08:00

*gruntz*

Wooot. Here pass by another 24 hours of our life. What have we done today? Have we listened to our favourite song, talk to that girl (or guy) you have always wanted to, or appreciated the existance of your friends being in your life, giving you the support and comfort, and even annoyance when you needed some?

Whatever. Today had CME lessons for 1st two periods. Ms Loke decided to go teach another class since "CME is not as important as missing out 2 weeks of science lesson". Wow. Sound good? Wrong.

Ms Tang came in to relief 1st period. Nice person.. asked me about my work and stuff. Although from one look anybody can tell that she is a *yawnz* nerd, hey it was pretty cool of her to come ask me stuff like that. She taught me maths last year, reliving permanetly from a teacher who went insane (okok, Ms Chua suffered mental disorder and amnesia, but hey its pretty close to insainity), I sorta gave her trouble by not giving homework, but still, as I said, being a nerd and all, asking me about my life? Way to go, you just earned a place in my "Teachers I respect list".

Then came Mr See. From one look, we all know this guy leads a sad life. 1stly, a male teacher. This is one of the most humiliating shit ever, why? Not because I look down on women and think that this job fits them. I just think that women are best for the job due to the nature of the occupation, and the kind of qualities it requires. When you are a male teacher, its always a sad case either way. There's 3 scenarios.
-You had no other options due to extremly poor qualification, and you decided that teacher is more dignified than being a cleaner or the ah pek camping outside toilet collecting precious 10 cents.
-You loved teaching, or/and wanted to be a teacher since young, inspired and stuff like that.
-You possess the feminine values such as caring, fussy, demanding and calculating.

Either way, your screwed. No skill to be a lawyer? Think being a teacher is honourable because you groom the future leaders of the nation? Dude, that's just bullshit for teachers to console themselves. Is Pythagoras' Theorem or Mitochondrion (bio stuff) or some musical Cheng Yu going to help make us into witty leaders with excellent understanding over economical, social and everysingle expect of the citizen's life? Although sad people believes that (check out who here), the fact is LEADERS ARE BORN, and groomed to maximise their potential, if they do not already know how to harness it. You can never change a person's destiny. This is subjectional yes, but fact is leadership is something that cannot be forced into a person. No amount of courses and bullshit (the basics of leadership is that *insert bullshit here*) can grow a leader. This is not planting trees. Even gene modification has its pros and cons. A cleaner leads a more dignified life than any coward (dude) who hides in the teaching profession. One takes great amount of courage, skin, and desperation to become a cleaner. Some are just out to make ends meet, some are to lighten the load of expense on thier families, and the rest are probably to contribute to the society in any useful way they can. In anycase, if you are a male teacher, unless you think you contribute to the society by identifying talens and leaders, 99.99% of you are despised by me.

2nd Point. You love teaching, or is it your ambition? Oh my god. The only word I have for you is gay. No, this is not stereotype thinking. Stop finding excuses for yourself gay.

3rd Point. You possess feminine values? And you EVEN THINK YOU POSSESS THEM? Your worst than gay.

Well anyway, Lets get back to the story. Mr See, the gentle male teacher who hadn went through puberty (does he even have kids?), came into our class. After bitching for people to do duty, and while me, Tan Shin and Jia Hao was busy making our parachute, he had the cheek to ask us to clean the rubbish. I mean, come on, clean the rubbish? How about eat your food?DUH of course rubbish is meant to be cleaned. If it is there, means we don't want to clean it. Just like if your plate is still full, means you are probably full and don't want to eat. (and Mr See scores 1- dumbass points!)

After carefully hiding the rubbish from his view, he happily thinked the class is clean and, wow, he cheekily spite us "Issin't the class cleaner now? Much better now? Wasn't it easy?" and gave this goody grin (5 retard points there). He was ignored, and was bored, so he went to look for more even stupid stuff to do. Went to confiscate Yu Han's phone, and took it away. Yu Han gave him a "CHAO CHEE BYE" (which is a vulgarity), and he immediately responded.

I was shocked he even could respond immediately, guess I was wrong about him being dumb-witted. Here's how the dialouge went.

*Yuhan plays with handphone
*Mr See takes it away
Yuhan: CHAO CHEE BYE (and probably a middle finger as promotional item)
Mr See: YeeW kJEWifwfiWOFi (yeah, I couldn't figure out what it meant, maybe you could, instanous response though) !
Yuhan: -.- ??!?! (plays chess)
Mr See: fOIUEOFiuofewojef You foUOWIEfjefe Vulgarity!
Yuhan: Wad?
Mr See: fJEWKJHke fkjhwefkjhKEF hkjfhjk fhkew! kfjheWJK Fhekjwhfj, EHFKJHWFk, And JKWEHFKJEHWKHFKEKJFHWKEHFKJWEHF!
Yuhan: Ya whatever ok.
*Mr See signals to Yuhan to go over
Yuhan: What I didn say anything
Mr See: *blah* class he did right?
Class: (and the orchestra begins. Start with a slow ascending crescendo, and when you hit high volumn soften down with a decrescendo) nnnnnNNNNNNNNOOOOooooooo.....
Mr See: Chairman?
Daniel: Er.. im not sure (what the fuck this moron even bothered to ask)
Mr See: fjkelJFKLfEWKLjhkljefklWJELFKj! (Which is more translated as, "Ok im going to run to mummy Bernadette Lim and she's going to cane you all! Waaaa you big bullies im going to have the last laugh! Hrmph! I hate you all bullies. Waaaaaaaaa)
*Mr See storms out of the class, like a baby. Awwwwww.

That's about it, the rest of the drama is pretty boring, but at least you guys are informed.

Im going to talk about people's character next, this stuff is boring, so if you are not prepared, just stop here. You can talk about the incident. =)

I just had about enough of all this bad manners I see in people lately. Since I slowly grew form primary school, my temper and tolerance increase and I just been pretty peaceful all my secondary school life. Being non-violent and all (hadn't break any nose. Of course, breaking a nose issin't much of a big deal you say. So how about you let me break yours for the fun of it?). But what's up with all the vulgarities sprewing like a leaking water hose? Hey, blogging it out is one thing, performing it is another. I don't care how much you say fuck, when I say bad manners it means BAD MANNERS.

Like. Me to Wen Wei. "Hey Fuck you lah." "Hey Fuck you back lah kao bei kao bu" and both of us will give each other a hit on the shoulder and have a good laugh. Real bad manners is this. Lets demostrate without the use of the so-called "vulgarities"

A: "Hey what you looking at"
B: "Tuck in your shirt lah later teacher scold"
A: "I don't tuck in your business ah"
B: "Ya lah your face to ugly I don't like. Tuck in lah"
A: "Nah"
B: "Oi, you tuck in if not I tell teacher hor!"
A: "TELL TELL LAH. WHAT'S YOUR PROBLEM"
B: "MY PROBLEM IS YOU NEVER TUCK IN YOUR SHIRT. TUCK IN NOW!!"
A: "GET OUT OF MY SIGHT LAH YOU"
B: "OI YOU BETTER NOT TOUCH MY HEAD AGAIN I WARN YOU"

And the story gets better. That is bad mannered, without vulgarities.

So much for all the school rules. We're culturing GOOD MANNERED pupils, so vulgarities is banned. Nobody is allowed to say them. BIG DEAL. Is that going to make us all good mannered students? Lol.

Bad mannered people usually are this way to compliment with an insult. Bad mannered is usually expressed in an insult.

Criticism and insulting is 2 different things.
"Hey tuck in your shirt, teacher nearby, at least act decent for a while"
"Hey tuck in your shirt, you are not cool and look fucking ugly"
No money for identifying which.

For people who comment, if its a bad thing, and you don't write your name, naturally it turns into an insult. Anonymous bad comments are never positive criticisms. If you want to say something bad, say it face to face, or at least let people know you said it. Don't hide behind like a coward. When you give an insult, I totally salute you. For having the courage to speak your mind. That is one step closer to a stress-free life.
When you give an insult in a bad-mannered way, that's a bad thing for sure. But giving an insult ill-manneredly and then hiding like a coward is THE WORST. Not only you show yourself worthy of only giving little stabs on the back, it shows that you lack the confidence in what you say. Most of these comments, especially left on blogs, well lets take an example.

"YOU ARE A UGLY MOTHER FUCKER WHO LIKE TO ACT CHIO/SHUAI. STOP PRETENDING ALL THIS SHIT. FORGET ABOUT LIKING SO-AND-SO YOU WILL NEVER GET HIM/HER. GET A LIFE YOU BITCH. YOU ARE A SAD CASE" - Anonymous

Again, no money for guessing who the sad case is. The comment look like it is confident and said out of anger, but hiding your name? What does that imply? Your point sucks. Because you are probably afraid of any punishment that might occur, and hiding saves you from punishment (which includes embarrassment). If I make a true and strong comment, I DEFINITELY WON'T FEEL ASHAMED. Just like when I say NAN HUA BAND SUCKS. Am I afraid that people will think im a betrayer and backstabber and all? No! Because I am confident of what I say. Yes it is an insult in anyway you look at it, but is it ill-mannered? Nan Hua Band Sucks = I have a bad opinion of it. Rude? Because I think it differently from what you think? Or what? You judge.

In a nutshell, I would like to promote free thinking. Free mindedness. Encourage freedom of speech. Its a free world out there. Just because everybody say school is boring, doesn mean you have to see it that way too. If you have your own thinking, voice it out! Show everybody that you are you, you are not everybody, because you think for yourself. This is preferably not insults, and something of positive value. Whatever the case is, speak out, and think free. Fuck rules. Fuck stereotypes. Fuck philosophies. We live our live and walk this journy the way we want. Not follow other people's path. If you do that, I think its pretty sad you are trying to follow somebody's "perfect" way of living.

Btw, here's what I think of teaching career. Contrary to what I mentioned just now, I highly look upon the prospect of teaching. They probably train the teachers into thinking of treating every kid with respect and giving everybody equal chance. Letting everybody learn together. Equality. Peace. Fair Competition.

But face facts. Life is never fair, nor equal. No matter how you try, competitions are never fair. Even olympic competitions, or something simply like seeing who can don't blink for the longest period of time. There will be someone will little or big advantage. Or disadanvantage. It doesn matter. What's the purpose of teaching? I see teaching as a way to prepare us children for the future. For life. Just like a hunter we're trained to hunt with a bow and a knife.

But just academics is not enough. A hunter will never hunt properly until he actually kills something. That is his experience. Telling him how to kill or whatever is not enough. Tell him how he will feel, and all the different stimulations as much as experience can give. Identify his strength and weakness.

(on a more serious note)
Cilvilasation was a good thing, but I see it as a curse as it prolongs. Most of the teachers themselves have no life and knowledge about it, teaching used to be done by only the wisest and understanding of people, and for a good reason. Now teachers half of them do it as a job, another half do it as a so called "interest". How many of them actually help us students prepare for future life? Our mental wellbeing? Social Wellbeing? We're equiped with the proper knowledge about this shit and that crap, yes, but do we know about the competitiveness about the outside world? What have the teachers taught us about that? We grow up, discovering this by ourselves, sadly most of us never. We lead a sad mundane childhood, nobody tells us how to have fun and such, and thus we fantasize about having "fun" and end up having "fun" like doing drugs, books and stuff. We all lead spilt life, and not know the meaning of life. Life means survival, getting good grades, good job, raise a family, lead a happy life, (happy meaning with job and not starving) and dying without any troubles. That's just sad.

The way I see it, the lower you are on the wealth chain, the more you enjoy life. Because only by looking at hardship can you see happiness. Only by hoping for "perfect" lifestyle we then see how impossible it is.

Teachers as an example. Scolding us, making our lives miserable, doing things the way they always want.. homeworks in, test studied, uniforms good, student obidient. Is that the best? Imagine one day all of us are like robots.. perfect students. Does that make you teachers out there feel good? Half of us are pressurised and from all the blogs and sms and all this kind of stuff, im sure half the friends you know are depressed in one way or another. That is because we're leaving our childhood, the most pure way of living, and growing up and slowly moving in into the "survival" chain. The work force. By the age of around 20 we have already accepted this. Fun will totally be in different forms. Fun will be having no hardship, such as good family and ready money. That becomes our happiness. And that's sad. Everyday I see students sad and depressed in one way or another, disappointed by this or that, but as more of these comes we slowly accept it like karma. Seldom teachers can prevent this, and even if they try, it only last for a few years of students before they are converted to mindless, working machines. Sad. *Shakes head*

Anyway, that's a lot of shit I typed. So much for all this crap. Typing a blog entry from 12 - 1:29 in the morning is pretty cranky, I get loony and yet I have so much boring things to say. Lol. can't expect me to make every entry interesting. Because im a boring man. =P

Btw, PISTACHIO SOUNDS COOL. Im officially addicted to this word. Pistachio. Pyees-taaaa, chio. Woot. not because it has a chio at the back ok... haha.

Pistachio RULES! lalala =)

SGI? SINGapore Idol?

2004-08-26T22:50:00.000+08:00

??!?!?!? Why is there a SING infront of SINGapore? Disgraceful to our name that we sing like that. Oh, lets ramble on about my eventful life 1st.

Today went to school, surprisingly not sleepy today. Had boring lessons as usual, slept thru a few periods etc.... and then I finally know all my results.

A maths - Fail
E maths - Fail
Chinese - Fail (wah, really?)
Chem - Fail
Bio - OMG WTF BBQ NEARLY PASSED (but fail lah)
SS - Fail
Geog - Fail
Eng - Scored well? Weird stuff.

Apparently, I did badly for everything, and did well for 1 subject. So much for consistant work. This just confirms the theory that I have of myself. If I do something badly, I must be worst thanb everyone. If I do well, I must be better than everyone else. In that way, im always in a way better (im better at failing, writing wrong answers, sleeping... etc. you get the point) at something. Yay! Does that mean I am a poor lonely man (ok boy) with a low self esteen to use such methods to console myself? Haha. No. Failing doesn't bother me anymore. I think that needs more attention than people who cry over not getting As.

Went home, I found out mr tan called those bad result people (except me strangely) and said I was a bad influence. Warning: Turn Head Away If You Are Offended By Vulgarities

Ok, so WTF IS YOUR PROBLEM. Why am I a bad influence. Lets see. We shall spilt these 2 words. What does bad mean? Does it mean im bad because I don't see things your way? I don't do homework, I don't work hard, I don't pay attention in class, I don't do the usual thing that most students do in thier school life. So that makes me bad? Wowzerz. Nice going theory.

Influence? I will I influence a friend? Do you go around influencing your friends to cut themselves or stop doing homework or whatever? What kind of psychotic moron would do that? "Since we're such good friends, please trust me, poke mdm noridah's ass with that pocket knife. Trust me. Do it." Will any saint person do that kind of thing? Even though I would love to see that (#*&$(@#($ wince in pain like a sore pig (although technically, we know its impossible to poke through that big black pile of blubbler anyway, and we waste resources breaking 1 pocket knife, but that's not the popint), its for my own benefit and why the hell would I do it?

And lets say even if i do how, how can it bad? If im such a jackass thinking the way you are (tan hsiao yu, what a fucked name anyway) I wouldn't do it if I think its a BAD influence would I? Come on, since when would you do something you don't benefit from? Its human nature. You either make them do something bad, to derive sadistic pleasure from it or make them do something for you (like a dog, ruff ruff). Who will do something that risk making it look bad on themselves? Why would I want to stop anybody from studying and look like a total jackass?

Mr Tan: "Hello? Timothy is a
BAD + INFLUENCE =" WHY ARE YOU MAKING SUCH A FUCKING STUPID COMMENT?
I owned you, go eat some Noridah and die. Gogogo.

From today on, I hearby declare Mr Tan Power Pig on the century.

Ok, Enough of these dumb teachers. Lets get on with the much awaited, SINGapore IDOL!

SINGAPORE IDOL
Ok, cut the crap. At 1st I thought the starting of the show was just trying to humour and entertain us with the William Hung wannabes and stuff. Hey, William Hung is funny and stuff, but lets face it, it gets boring after a while.

Today I guess can be called the 1st real performance. Hey, other than 2 I saw, the rest was pretty shit. Yes Shit. Sorry, if you are going to tell me "Hey you can't sing better so shut the fuck up and keep your comments to yourself", then let me tell you. No critics = Don't know what went wrong. Don't know what went wrong = Can't Improve. Can't Improved = Fucked.

So if im not good enough, there will be no critics. Nobody will ever be good enough. Conclusion?
"Hey you can't sing better so shut the fuck up and keep your comments to yourself" = Fucked.

Anyway, as I said, they were crap. But the last one really impressed me. The David "Beng" Kia. Starting auditions and main performance I guess he was nervous and stuff, he sang pretty.. average. But last part when he won Benjamin, I could tell he was confident and he sang really sweetly. Gosh. You earned 25% of my idolism for this show. Gogogo! Somemore he was kinda funny, although he sorta overdid it in my opinion. But that's just me.

Oh ya, I cut my hair. Looks short and crappy. Die :S. Take a pic and post tomorrow =P

WARNING: HORRIBLE FLAME (Band Sucks)

2004-08-25T22:08:00.000+08:00

If you are polite well mannered person, who is offended by quirky foul language, then I suggest you better get the f.. I mean, you better not read the following post.

I skipped Band practise today (no, I had tuition, you have to believe me you dumbasses!)

Went out with Hui Hui. Hey, pretty good talk. So long never talk to my mei le.. =) Hope ya manage to sort things out.

Came back home, bathed, check phone and came online. WHOA. So much shit about Band. 1stly, lets starts with the facts.

Jacinta (3/2) was given assistant secretary.
Guan Wei (3/2) was thrown to treasurer and
Ivan (3/7) was given Assistant Band Major.
Timothy (who's that? the smart one?) was sacked out of Quarter Master post.

Let me give a plea. WAAAAAAH why did you sacked me? I want to serve as your humble servant in this condamned house of pretence where all mother fuckers hang out as the (behold) "COMMITEE" (shiny light all over, angelic music everywhere, and let loose a good singaporean "whoa") Am I not bitchy enough to hold a place in this saintly council? I want to be forever finding out why the attendance is so bad (why is that attendance bad? hmmm... such a great mystery), looking out for the welfare (meaning unhappy or happiness) of the people (im the supreme mother fucker *insert post here* that pwned you, so accept it, stop whining, and bow down to me you moron!) and most importantly, I want to enjoy being around in committee meetings where we discuss about most complicated things (why is attendance bad? lets discuss 5 more hours over this puzzling problem).

Hey, Jacinta was given a post. Why? Cause its problem fucking obvious that people are tulan they have no post. What to do?

"Clarinet section already 4 people pon in one shot, give them some post to shut thier fucking puny ass up! Kick that whiner whom I can't seem to kid with a stupid post, and create a new post, put 2 of the Clarinet people in and we solve the problem of the section! Haha. Those dumb chinese can bitch around, I don't care, I WIN I WIN!!! MUAHHAHA. THE PILE OF SHIT OWN YOU ALL" thinks the cute little famous teacher whom we all can't seem to guess who.

Ivan and Guan Wei changed place? Why? As ABM, guan wei did nothing, whereas as treasurer, Ivan collected band fund once. Collecting band fund is such an important, and difficult job (although in the end, the fund is still damn corrupted and collection wasn't perfect anyway), and from the collection of funds, Ivan is seen to have such huge leadership potential! God. Lets get loansharks to be Prime Minister instead. They can collect thousands of dollars successfully. What great leadership!

Now, there's nothing I find personally wrong with this people, except for the two main guys. The left dog, and the right dog. That's right. Dogs to the all invincible lump of shit, and the assistants and everything that follows after are dogs to the dogs (what's that called?) That's is the "COMMITTEE" (kneel and bow to the all high) of the Band.

Impressive huh? That's right. Band totally rocks. Oh how I love NHSB.

GOLD (Great *insert O adjective here* laughable dream) FOR 2005!

p.s. Comments greatly appreciated. Defend teh fux if ya want. Tell me what's written in that bible about your holy "COMMITTEE" (tremble before it)

Sucky 2nd Day =(

2004-08-23T21:21:00.000+08:00

What a fucked day. Got back social studies, failed 5/13 -_-.
Met mdm noridah, and she kicked me out of committee. No big shit really, but really she's such a bitch reminding me of band and stuff.

This is what I think of her then.

This is what I think of her now.

Of course, kudos to Goh Jia Hao for stabbing me on the back. Your a nice mannered mother fucker, sucha rare, but increasing common breed of assholes known as hypocrites. Good stuff. Welcome to da Kakeru Club.

(just for those who don't know, saying anything non-negative about Kakeru is very vulgar to me)

Having such a fabulous life. So much for blogging positive things. Oh well here goes.

I was going to write an argumentative essay, my homework, Mrs Tan was kind enough to let me do a more open topic rather than follow the usual class topics. I was given the liberty to write more, and less restricted form of language. However, as you all know, Im too lazy to write a few words thats related to school. While others write about (argumentative essays) "Should Marine Parks Be Banned?" or "Are teenagers soft?" I get to write stuff like "Is Practise Important And Practical?" (yeah I do notice the controversy?)
Im going to post my work in the next post if I do do it. And I smsed her for her email.. she was shocked. She gave me her email so I can submit my work, and ask me if I am ok. Haha.

Probably going to do my homework tomorrow, right now, Im feeling like I let myself, and the conductor down. What has band become to in my eyes? Look at my opinion of Mdm Noridah now somewhere at the top.

Oh btw, I discovered the canned root beer that has an A&W at the top (the true original one) has a little sour taste. My conclusion is that I'm definitely sick today, my saliva probably have a neutral PH level causing the root beer to taste sour. Yep.

p.s. Yeah ok, I promise to do something about my template tomorrow. Im lazy =P And Zhou Jie Lun - Zhi Zhan Zhi Shang RAWKZ!

First Post

2004-08-23T00:44:00.000+08:00

(Lets start with a huge)
Woot .
Its my 1st day blogging again sorta, and this time I wanna make this work. More proper spelling and punctuation, and not so much on sad and private things. I think this way it will accomplish more of the "destress" its suppose to give. Afterall how much difference is it writing it down and thinking? Not very, so lets just write other stuff. Yup yup *nods* =)

Today pretty much nothing happen. Went Jun Wei house to play FFX, he asked me to start one so.. oook. Then we tried to be lame. Had this urge to call him FRANKIEE and then he asked me to call him FRANK the TANK. Bullshit yups. And he decided to call me Chan The Clinkz. Lame stuff.. surprised im still a kiddo. Wheeeeee ^^

And that, inspired ask to write a story. Of course, its probably not gonna last, but who cares, I wanted to start a blog, and also a story, so lets do it together =) It'll probably be linked somewhere....

Lastly, im accepting all wreaths for this opening (yes yes, you can send it through mail).

Long Live Thy Blog!